3:02 AM THOUGHTS

When your mind races so fast that nothing seems to make sense.

You try to slow it down, try to comprehend it all but everything's a blur.

Second guessing yourself, you put your walls up, you're scared that whatever this is, it's too good and you don't deserve it.

This fear plagues your thoughts, creating doubt and worry, leaving a bitter taste in the back of your throat. 

Starts to drain the life out of you, the thoughts in your mind become monsters. Your own creations, stare blankly right back at you and sometimes you don't even know where these insecurities came from.

You ask yourself, do you cut your losses before things even begin?

Or do you play the game, and give the person a chance even though it's scary as fuck?

Even if it means the chance of getting fucked over?

Don't let the fear of losing, keep you from playing the game. 

I know it's easier than it sounds. I know it's a scary thing to let someone see the deepest and darkest parts of what makes you human. 

But it's okay, because some people are worth the risk, you just need to have a little faith. 

I don't think I've ever been so scared that I might fuck things up. I think sometimes I'm scared that being me is not enough.

I think sometimes I feel like I need to be more. 

And I think sometimes I just need to remember that we're all human. 

And sometimes all you can do is give it everything you have because when you look back at everything that's happened, you want to be able to say to yourself you gave it everything, and sometimes that's the best thing that anyone can ask for.