If I never expect, I'll never be disappointed.

I'm going to try this out.

I don't really know what to say.
Actually, I think I'm more afraid of who actually reads this,
How they're going to interpret it, and how they're going to judge me.
I tell myself that this should be my place in cyberspace.
Where I can do whatever I want, and noone can stop me.
I should be able to say whatever without a worry.
But I can't really be who I want to be and say what I want to say.
Because the truth is, there's a world out there, a world that can read.
A world that doesn't empathise and a world that judges based on assumptions.
Just one big scary world, that I have to live in.
And that's all I have to say.

To all those juniors at my school, who think they're top shit, you're not, so stop pretending like you are. Wtf ever happened to respecting your elders?!

Yeah just thought you'd like to know, when you think its convenient, I'll be long gone.

Cannot wait for my Hotel 626 date with Alanna :)

Tell me when to press ►

Why is it that you get to control what happens to me?
That I'm only apart of your life when you say so.
That I only get to be loved when you want to.
That I'm only your favourite when there's noone else.
That I have to go to you, when you want me to.
No matter how many times I tell myself to follow my dreams,
I end up listening to you, doing whatever you want me to.
And it's stupid because I keep coming back.

You know what? Let's just forget about what I feel, because really that doesn't matter.
And I was kidding myself when I thought this was real.

Put me down for whatever, coz where ever this is going, it's not where I wanna go.

TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL, I'M NOT A MIND READER.

Tell me if I'm waiting for something that's never going to be happen.

200th Post 8D

I don't really know where to go from here.
Feels like I have to slow things down,
But everything is moving without me.
I can't catch up, life won't wait for me.
I guess the only thing that can wait for me, is you.

Threatened.

this is freaking tearing me apart.

Guess I'm not.

ASKDJASKLDJASLD FUCK I GIVE UP.

Fuck, I hate this.

Maybe it's just easier to forget all the memories and forget we ever met.

Sometimes I wonder if I should even express myself.

I take it all back, what was I thinking?
Thought I'd be able to surpass all the complications.
Tried to make things simple,
But I don't get to make the rules
In a world of others, I just live by their rules.
This is too hard, and it hurts to much to play.
I was kidding myself when I thought that I
could end with 'happily ever after'.
The more I think about it, I don't think I
should play other people's games.
So just give me the free pass and I'll be gone.
I promise it'll be easier in my absence
Because I don't think I belong,
I don't think I belong in your game.

I'm not going to fall for it this time because that would just complicate things.

i think i'm a bother and a waste of space.

let me know if you can make me feel better.

INSECURE.

Sometimes I'm really scared, scared that you won't like what you find.

I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you.

Maybe I'm too different. :/

may·be

/ˈmeɪbi/ Show Spelled[mey-bee]

–adverb

1.

perhaps; possibly: Maybe I'll go too.

–noun

2.

a possibility or uncertainty.

Maybe you don't really know me. Maybe I'm not who you think I am. Maybe I'm not who you want me to be. Maybe we're just all stuck in this fantasy and it's just time before we realise we have to wake up. Maybe everything we touch will turn to dust. Maybe this is too hard. Maybe this is what I want. Maybe you'll hate what you end up finding. Maybe if I'm lucky, just maybe you'll take me for who I am.

I can't.. get you out of my head. :/

We only see the real side of people through their blogs. Through the way they write and express themselves. This is the only way, they can be who they really are, not who they are expected to be. This is probably the only place you can see who I really am, even if it is subjective, even if all I write are a couple of sentences that probably don't mean anything to you. Sometimes I wish I could see life from your perspective, just as easily you can see life from mine.

Two things could happen between us as time moves forward. 1) you'll fall in love with me. 2) you'll fall out of love with me. You tell me.

I don't want to be just another girl.

Why start now?

If you're going to flirt, please not in my face.

We're so alike.

◄◄x2 & ►

If only I had the power to rewind time.

I'll tell you how I feel, through my blog. :)

baby without you I'm nothing.

you fill up my thoughts.

As much as I hate to say this, I think you should forget about me.

I don't think I can win.

It's alright, just wait and see your strings of light are still bright to me.
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.

- Taylor Swift; Innocent .

a girl can always wish.

Sometimes I wish memories would be more reliable. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze time just for a little while, to stay in the moment. Sometimes I wish the weather would be sunny all the time. Sometimes I wish that life didn't have to be so complicated. Sometimes I wish you could be honest with me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't the one you fell back on. Sometimes I wish hugs would last forever. Sometimes I wish that I'd be able to smile even when I'm sad. Sometimes I wish that you would call. Sometimes I wish that you would talk to me. Sometimes I wish you loved me. Sometimes I wish someone would grant me my wish.

TODAY.011110

WEIRD.FUN.AMAZING.RAINY.WET.HUGS.SHARING.NUGGETS.BADGES.CARS.BARBERS.BINS.CONFUSING.UNDERSTANDING.RUNNING.MESS.BREATHLESS.

You make me smile without even trying. :)