I can do this.

I don't think I can do this.

I would've gone with you in a heartbeat.

The End.

DEARBLOG;
Urgh, things are hard, don't particularly like them right now, trying to concentrate in class is very difficult and I'm not really sure what to do, I've got like a physics assessment in 2 weeks, which is really freaking me out, I should totally start studying for it like now, because otherwise I will fail, and that's not cool, especially when its contributing to my HSC, very scary. :( So i don't really know what to do with like things. == gosh this must be confusing. :S i'm not going to confuse you anymore.
Signing out.

Shout out to Michelle, coz she's awesome. :)

Shout out to Carl, :D Msg me when you read this LOL

Yeah whatever.

HSC 2011

Subjects:
Extension 1 Mathematics :/
2U Mathematics :/
Advanced English :)
Chemistry T_T
Physics :)
Studies of Religion 1U :)

ATAR Aim ; 95+ (:
Realistic ATAR guess ; 70 T_T"
Actual ATAR ; /: might tell, depending on what i get LOL :L

Ryan Atwood & Marissa Cooper

I think you've guessed it, after watching two seasons of The OC and still going I'm on Season 3 right now, and what I've fallen in love with is Marissa & Ryan's relationship. :) They love each other so much and sacrifice so much for each other, it's so cute (: Ahah, so I guess I'm sounding pretty corny now, so some things I love about Marissa & Ryan is when Trey and Ryan are fighting and because Trey is strangling Ryan, Marissa ends up shooting Trey, okay that doesn't sound very romantic at all LOL. And after Ryan was taken into jail because Trey falsely accused Ryan of shooting him, Marissa then goes to confront Trey and changes his mind *ngaaaw* :) She's sucha babe 8D Ahaha, and also when Ryan and Marissa are on the Ferris Wheel after Marissa is expelled [she's not allowed to attend the school carnival] and some teacher tells Marissa off and tells her to leave, and eventually grasps tightly onto her wrist, Ryan then punches the guy 8D LOLOLOL, okay well I don't want my boyfriend to like whack people for touching me but knowing that he's there to defend me would be nice :) it's one of those traits that i look for. :)

UNSW

Yep, you guessed it, so yesterday I went with my friends Sam & Emily to UNSW, because a) I had nothing else to do & b) i've always had a crush on UNSW, so I decided to go visit it. In the morning, Sam came to pick me up at about 7:40 8D LOLOL, and then Emily was already in the car so we went to pick up another friend, who I must mention is very awesome aswell, DEBBIE :) Aheheh, so we drove to UNSW, and when we got there, Emily & Debbie decided to go get coffee probably because they've been staying up very late :( And so we walked to the Business building which looks very modern and pretty, :) and we went into theatre 15, i think. And Debbie and Sam went to their tutorial and Emily stayed with me for abit and then left for her tutorial. So I was just waiting outside doing some chemistry work, which was pretty alright? LOLOL, and BOOM an hour flew by like that! :D

They all finished their tutorials and we went to this other place to wait until it was 11 so Emily could go to her lecture :) And I started throwing Sam's green P's at him and I kept saying "Eat P's" ahaha, and it was weird, this guy kept staring at me. :S So when it was time, we walked Emily to class and then sat in the Quad for a bit.

Then we had to go to Upper Campus because Sam wanted to buy an envelope LOL so Sam and I trekked it all the way to the Upper Campus and there are WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too many stairs! And so we went to the POST OFFICE :) YES THEY HAVE A POST OFFICE, they also have a Dental Clinic, Chemist and Medical Clinic oh and of course the Optometry Clinic :) So Sam and I arrived at the Post Office and bought and envelope and Sam also bought me a mini Mars bar for 70 cents, I was so amazed he bought it because it was so expensive. LOL, Anyhoo I then told Sam that I wanted to visit the Library, UNSW Store and also the Optometry building. :) So we went to the library which is very funky! :D yes I was very fascinated, and they have heaps of study rooms, it makes me wanna go to their library just to study :L AND THEIR LIBRARY HAS TEN LEVELS 8D aheheh, yeah it was very exciting! :D We then went to the UNSW merchandise store where they have UNSW jerseys, and jackets, hoodies, bags :D and awesome graduation teddy bears! :D that was pretty awesome. :) I 'd really like a UNSW jacket :D so hopefully I make it into the course I want and then I can make that dream come true. :) We then entered a restaurant called Southern Wok because Sam wanted milk tea, and their Taro Milk tea was very nice. :) teehee, OH ALSO THEY HAVE A HAIR SALON ON CAMPUS! :D So Sam and I went to see the Optometry building which is kind of isolated all by itself, but it looks very pretty and modern, and they have a North Wing and South Wing. :D

After waiting for Emily to come out of her lecture, I also saw Shirley & Joss YAAAY :D haven't seen them in ages teehee, so then we decided to go to UNIBAR :D That was pretty cool, because I'm underaged teehee, and at the back of UNI bar they have this arcade kinda section with pool tables and arcade games like Street Fighter :D We waiting for Sam to finish to finish playing pool, then I farewelled everyone and left with Sam. :)

Sam decided to take me to birkenhead point because I've never been and I was soooo hungry D: and by the time we got there, there wasn't much choice, there was sushi, noodles, subway and gozleme. :( So i got noodles and after I finished we decided to go to DFO then I found out that he once took an hour to go from birkenhead point to DFO T_T how depressing :( So the ride was quite long because there was a traffic jam which totally sucked! :L So when we go there, we were kinda just eye shopping and then we went to Cotton On and i decided to wear these guy shirts LOL because I liked them, and apparently they made me look "hot" teehee LOL and I also bought 2 cardigans for $2 which were originally $25 WOO :D SO yeah after that sam just drove me home, but I had a great time. :) And I love my UNI kids. ! 8D

You're crushing me, and you don't even care, you don't even know it.

So, I don't really know what to say because it feels
like I've just lost my best friend. I know we weren't
exactly that close, but it sure felt like that to me,
and now you don't even call and we don't even
talk anymore. I don't even know what happened,
and you surely don't want to let me in on the
secret. So is this it then? Is this the end of our
friendship? Can we even call it that? And why
do you get to control what goes on between us?
This is driving me crazy and I really don't know
where to go from here, because it really feels
like I've just lost my best friend.