'I don't want to be with anyone else. I love you so much. You make me so happy.'

And I think what hurts the most is that I'm meant to be able to come to you to talk about anything and everything. But how the fuck do you suppose I do that if you don't even listen to me? If you don't even care, and you're fucking oblivious to fucking everything that goes on in my life? How the fuck is that suppose to work? Yeah tell me when you fucking know the answer. Because I'm fucking sick of it.

Never in my life have I been so scared to lose something that means so much to me.

And maybe it's because it's still the early hours of the day, or maybe this is really something different, something special that no one could understand no matter how much they tried to.

I feel like this overwhelming feeling consumes me, ties me down and it won't let me go, but it also has the power to make me feel things I've never felt before.

☼

Not a sound, you go by unnoticed.
But when you speak, it's warm.
I can feel you radiate your sun rays.
You chase the clouds away.
There's rainbow on the other side.
You run across the stars.
And explode like a supernova.
Your magic lights up the sky,
You shine bright like the sun.
And even in the darkest hours,
We see your light shining like diamonds.
And even though you're gone,
You're still here.
You're still here.

Last night was no doubt, amazing.
All it took was a little courage to embrace entire adventure.

"Right from the start
You were a thief

You stole my heart."

P!nk - Just Give Me a Reason ft Nate Ruess

Because I don't feel like I'm of any significance to you.

Never Know

Woke up this morning to grey skies.

Rain drops dance along my window sill.

Could feel my happiness drain away.

Nothing left but this broken core.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

Rush home to be with you.

Your absence lingers, it feels numb.

Could feel my happiness drain away.

Nothing left but this broken core.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

And all I wanted was for you

To give a damn.

Figure out things weren't right.

Just wanted to hear your voice.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

"I wish I was strong enough to lift, not one, but both of us.

Some day I will be strong enough to life, not one, but both of us."

Both of Us - B.o.B ft Taylor Swift.

To be honest, I'm petrified.

I'm so afraid.
I don't want to lose this magic.

If i turn away, just for a moment,

What if everything is gone?

And sometimes I wonder how

I even managed to even find 

Something so perfect.

I stay up to watch the champagne stars.
Watch them drift through the night sky.
Take me to the unknown.
Let me live for this moment.

And this is how our story goes,
When our fingers interlock,
I feel our hearts locking too.
Tell me you can feel the sparks.
I feel it raining butterflies.
Let me lay in the rain, wash away all the insecurities.
It doesn't matter because we got this far.

◀◀ H1M; 7413;

• Waking up way too early.
• Silver Linings Playbook.
• Losing my phone.
• Finding my phone.
• Darling harbour.
• End of daylight savings.
• Talking on the pier.
• All smiles.

"Why worry now? You'll be safe
Hold my hand, just in case
And we won't fade into darkness."

Fade into Darkness - Avicii

Happy little kitties.

it's been a crazy couple days to say the least.

definitely been an emotional roller coaster.

but hey, back down to earth now.

and i really hope it stays like this for a little while.