dear follow readers,

how are we today? yes i am doing a normal blog post - not comprised of too much emotion. it is going to be very direct. i feel like i haven't don't one of these in a long time. so i am currently sitting on level 6 of the main library. i am quite hungry, i haven't really had lunch. i had an original green tea mango mantra from boost, that doesn't really count does it? well i am sitting here in my break. this has by far been the longest break i have ever gone through (it's only 2 hours) kind of feels like forever. my phone is going to die soon i am on 27%, it is currently 4:30pm, how sad. i have to stay here until 8pm - joy. it is quite cold, i am pretty sure the air con is blowing right up in my face and my hands are cold, but that's okay. i am wearing my puffy khaki jacket today and it is keeping me tres warm. so i was going to play neverwinter - yes i like to play games. however i got to this part where it asked what 'stard' i wanted to be in, and then i had no idea how to proceed, so i stopped after that. it's okay though because i am going to go home and play with bk. someone told me a couple days ago that i need to be strong, so that people can rely on me. i need to be a rock. a very good rock. a rock that people can lean on, when they're upset. when they don't want to be here anymore. when they think they have nothing going for them. it is really sad when i see my friend, let us called this person Q. yes Q, how obscure. anyway, let me continue. so every time I see Q, i feel that Q is quite content. but no, this  is not the case at all. i guess it is somewhat like an iceberg, where everything lies beneath the surface. i don't know if Q is okay. I hope Q is okay. I  feel as though whatever i try to do to help Q is not working. Q is very upset. i hope no one ever has to go through that unhappiness. it seems somewhat emotionally draining. i want Q to be okay. no, i don't. i want Q to be better than okay. i want Q to be where i am, because i think Q deserves to be happy. and it's hard to imagine how people have such a dramatic effect on us. i always tell myself that people are just people and what is the most that they can do? but this is so wrong. well yes, people are people. but people are capable of destruction. people make other people hurt and cry. i don't want people to do this. oh dear, i just rewinded to the beginning of this blogpost where i said it wasn't going to be emotional. funny that it as long as i keep typing, things start to get emotional and i didn't even start out trying to be emotional. i just wanted to type a recount of how my day is, the next thing you know, i'm pouring out all this emotion. crazy isn't it? that just having a set of keys in front of me can cause me to fall victim to expression of emotion? and that is all from me. i hope you get better Q. you mean a lot of me. and i want everything to be okay. i don't know where i would be without you.

x

peace out kiddies.