People say what they need to say to get them through that moment. After that, everything they said means nothing.

THE BEGINNING: 2014

● Dare to dream.
● Study harder, boost my WAM.
● Take things as they come.
● Look for the happier things in life.
● Make sure I know what is going on in lectures.
● Don't jump to conclusions and toughen up.
● Save more and spend wisely.
● Be more active and eat healthy.
● Be who I want to be and not who they want me to do.
● Bring on 2014.

THE END: 2013

● Found ♥.
● Self travelled.
● Melbourne.
● Piercings.
● Stonewall.
● Star Bar & Santuary.
● Stereosonic.
● Taylor Swift concert.
● Yellow Shirts.
● MapleStory, Hearthstone, RIFT, Neverwinter.
● Ombre hair.
● Credit WAM.
● Dark fun.
● Night adventures.
● Michael Kors & Kate Spade

Birthday Presents :3

I have the best friends. ♥

hi there :3

Nothing

We first met, a couple years ago.
I thought you were what I needed.
You were always warm.
You made me smile.  
You gave me this feeling, that I was missing.
But the truth is you drowned in bitter sweet water.
                     
You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,     
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

And even now, two years have passed.
I thought we could move pass it.
You were always cold.
You made me scream.
You gave me this feeling, I wasn't looking for.
But the truth is, you drowned me in bitter sweet water.

You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

And now I see it  
Written so clearly.           
That you never cared.
You were never there.      
You just wanted to drown out my light.

You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

Adventure Club; One of my favourite songs from Adventure Club.

Studying for my last exam, which is tomorrow.

Super excited, want this all to be over.

Can't wait.

Red Ombre Hair?

Really contemplating whether to get this done.

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American Horror Story.

So, I'm just going to rave about American Horror Story. I started this series a long time ago back when the first season came out and I was terrified in the first season, I couldn't even watch the opening. But I eventually got used to the dark, gore-y supernatural themes. I'm not sure why I stopped watching it, but since then they have made another two seasons. For some reason, I decided to watch the latest season American Horror Story: Coven. There are only 5 episodes out at the moment, but it was definitely captivating. It's dark and sinister this. At first, I was a bit sad that I found out that each season would have a different story, but it's made me really appreciate the actors and their ability to mould to a completely different persona. Although only some characters come back into the the next seasons, it's a relief to know that they're still there in spirit and that they're not completely dead. Seeing the character interactions makes me feel as though they they've been resurrected into another place, and the feelings I have for certain characters still linger. I definitely recommend it, if you like scary movies, it's a bit dark and contains sexual references. But if you can get past that, really appreciate the series because it is absolutely amazing.

x

Acts I want to see at Stereosonic.

DAY 1

1. Nicky Romero
2. Calvin Harris
3. Sebastian Ingrosso
4. Zedd
5. Ferry Corsten
6. David Guetta

DAY 2

1. Armin Van Buuren

2. Alesso

3. Gareth Emery

4. Krewella

5. Axwell

6. Afrojack

 

 * Subject to change as I listen to more EDM. :3

Michael Kors x Kate Spade New York Splurge?

Yup, that's right, you guessed it! The other day, I woke up and decided to reward myself by buying a Michael Kors Selma - Navy Tote and a Kate Spade New York Lacey Brightspot Ave - Pink Peony Wallet. So if you guys remember, i posted about the Michael Kors bag a bit more than a month ago. And it's been a love hate relationship. My feelings for it have subsided as I've seen people in the streets rock the look, and it just hasn't worked very well for them. 

 

But last week, I had my mid-semester break and I spent 4/7 days at work, and mind you I was at the new store as well which appears to be in the most isolated part of the shopping centre. So it was pretty much comprised of me sitting there for 8.5 hours straight having nothing to do. Clean? Yes I cleaned, but seeing as all the stock is new, I pretty much caught myself trying to wipe away non-existent dust from frames and surfaces. 

 

So I decided as a reward I would buy a Michael Kors bag. And I know it's quite expensive, hey don't get me wrong I worked pretty hard for this. And I decided to get a wallet as well because my wallet has pretty much died, and I'm running out of pockets to put my cards. I will hopefully do a first impressions post about what I think about my goodies once they arrive, hopefully they do soon. I am super excited. And well I actually was going to reward myself after my intense session of assessments about 3 weeks ago, but I decided to push it away... And here I am, giving in to temptation. But I think it will be a good investment. Just like the day when I bought 2 Marc Jacobs Sunshine toilettes and a Tiffany and Co. necklace on the same day. They have made great additions to my daily use just in case anyone was wondering.

And until next time beautiful people.

x

 

Hi guys,

Yes, I have been playing Maple Story. I woke up one morning and had this sudden urge to play it. So I've been playing with BK. And here's my character! Her name is lindmonster, a dawn warrior. I only started playing 2 weeks ago, squishing it in when I can. I think I'm in love with her. HAHA I ended up spending NX cash on myself. I initially bought it for BK, but apparently you can't gift unless you buy an actual gift card at a store which is super annoying. I'm only level 63 at the moment. I use to play if you rewind back like 5-6 years ago. And I remember it was so difficult to level, I was only level 33 and I couldn't get passed that and I played for ages. So if you guys are looking to play a game, definitely get into Maple Story! It's become so easy to level now, and it's not just grinding anymore. The quests are really cool, and you get really awesome items that you would otherwise would have to find via item drops. And yeah if your character is in Scania, feel free to add me :) And maybe we can party quest. Until next time, stay smiling.

x

and if things disappear, do you just stand idly by and let them go?

I'm good enough.

I think I'm doing okay. I just need to do it again.

And I want you to know that it's okay, because you didn't let the fear of getting striked out keep you from playing the game.

 

Happy after my last midsem :3 

 

So, I've never really been great academically. I mean sure, I'm not at the bottom either, but performing academically has never really been my strong point. Sure I can get credits, but being surrounded by people who excel academically who get high distinctions and distinctions effortlessly and all the time, I guess it's just like being slapped in the face. I've always hated take home assessments just because you never know where people get help from, but with quizzes and tests, you either know it or you don't. And what I've found really annoying is that what I feel that I excel at is being social, having emotional intelligence. I feel as these aspects aren't really talked about in our society. It's always "Oh what mark did you get?" I just feel like I've always been a B grade when it comes to academia, but I want to be more than that. I was talking to my mum about how I think being a "good person" is so under rated especially during high school. I mean my parents were never really disappointed in me, I guess they kind of always knew books were never really strong point. I've been told on numerous occasions I can conduct myself really well in social atmospheres, I know how to make people feel comfortable. But no one's going to assess you on that. Going to get a degree is all about how you perform academically and it really sucks. In fact, I don't really think I'm particularly good at anything. That's why I really want to get this, because it shows that I'm actually good at something. People want to work with me because I have some sort of talent. I'm so enthusiastic and optimistic, I'm motivated and I feel that grades just dictate a lot where you can go in life.

Detention Centres

I know that usually I post about more girly or emotional things. But I just want to share my experiences with you guys. So for one of my assignments at Uni, I'm have to write a paper about the impact of detention on asylum seekers. Prior of this assignment, I didn't really know much about detention centres - I'm quite a hermit when it comes to news. Before this assignment, my definition of asylum seekers in detention centres had always been of prison but so much better, minus the prison cells etc. I mean if anything, these people aren't criminals, in fact they're fleeing their own country in fear for their lives. So really, there's no harm right? Furthermore, Australia has a little population of only 22 million, we have so much space. But it turns out, after doing so much research for this assignment, the conditions of detention centres is terrible. I was so shocked to find out that it's pretty much like prison but 100 times worse. Detainees attempting to commit suicide, people sewing their lips together to protest, self harm in front of children? What the fuck is going on. We're not living in a developing country. Australia has been crticised for the conditions of it's detention centres on numerous occsaions. As a country who has fewer asylum seekers than most of the Western countries, the laws regarding detention are ridiciously strict. Urgh, I'm just so annoyed at how inhumane we are. The boat policies by current government are ridiculous. Why the hell would you send people who are fleeing for their life to Papua New Guinea where there's high rates of crime, sexual assault and murder? We freaken tell our our citizens to exercise extreme caution and highly suggest not to go there, yet we're sending asylum seekers there. I just don't get it. Fucking hell, I'd like to think we don't live in a corrupted society. Okay, end rant. I hope for those who are social hermits like myself, hopefully this has opened your eyes.And hopefully, I'm creating awareness about this. Anyways, til next time.

x

 

My Current Obsession: Michael Kors

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Currently crushing on: MICHAEL Michael Kors Large Selma in Navy.

I'm totally in love with this bag. The amount of YouTube videos I've watched reviewing this bag, is countless. I'm so annoyed that the MK Store in Sydney doesn't have this in stock. Well they don't have this colour, the last time I went they only had purple and the blue black tone one. It's so unfortunate that this is sold out at DJ's as well and  I have no idea, well they have no idea when they're going to get it in stock again. Turns out they rotate stock, so it's pretty much waiting for something that MIGHT happen. I might be purchasing this on Neiman Marcus, but it's going to be $425, and just to add the Australian dollar isn't really helping.

Sigh. Keep you guys posted. And if you don't hear anything, probably means my obsession has subsided. 

Keep smiling.

x

Dotti Paper Bag Pant

 

Dotti Paper Bag Pant - $69.96

Making me look like a little office lady. 

And if love is a game, you can never win.

Ellie Goulding - Hearts Without Chains (Official Audio)

Song of the Day: Hearts Without Chains - Ellie Goulding
So much raw emotion.

Q&A with the BF

Hi guyths, 

I want you all to meet my special boy friend.
His name is Brendan.
I'm going to be doing a Q&A with him for this post.


L: If you were stranded on an island, what 3 items would you bring with you?
B: I would bring an axe, a bed, and a girlfriend (my girlfriend).

L: How would you describe yourself in 5 words.
B: I am organised. I am a good listener. I am attentive to detail. I am quick on my feet, thinking wise. I am logical.

L: What were your first impressions of me?
B: Very cheerful, bubbly, cute, little Asian girl.

L: If you could be good at one thing, what would it be?
B: I'd be good at dancing.

L: Describe our relationship.
B: Strong commitment. A lot trust. We love each other very much. We've gone through a lot of hardships to get to where we are, so there's a lot of foundation. I see us going very far together.

L: Upon meeting me, did you think we would be in the relationship that we are now?
B: There was potential, but i didn't know we would get this far this quickly.

L: What's an interesting trait that you have?
B: I get very irritate when I don't know something.

L: What are 10 things that you look for in a girl?
B: Personality, nice smile, makes me laugh like funny, a bit cheeky, prefer cute over hot, cultured, has nice teeth, very caring, likes to have fun, slightly adventurous.

L: What's a motto that you like to live by?
B: Seize the day.

L: Any last words?
B: Glad to be in this relationship, and part of your life.

We've also started a joint blog together, we only made it yesterday, so it's still under construction.
But you can find it here:
http://bybkandlj.blogspot.com.