20 FACTS ABOUT ME.

I got tagged on Instagram, but I decided to write this up as a blog post instead.

1. I love singing! I'm not particularly sure why, but it definitely didn't start from a young age. I remember back in Year 3, my friend was always rubbing it in my face that she could sing and I felt that I couldn't - not that I'm saying I can now, but I don't think I'm tone deaf.
2. My friends describe me as bubbly. And it's a kinda funny because I'm actually quite fragile, yet I still manage to keep my smile on. 
3. I really enjoy making small talk when I'm out because I think that little piece of conversation can make someone feel special.
4. I am not particularly good at math or science, although I did chemistry, physics and 3U mathematics in Year 12.
5. I think I really treasure my personal happiness, and I'm at a time in my life, where I've given up on trying to do things that I hate to please others. 
6. Having said that, I think there are some people in my extended family who don't really understand me, and hence I feel like I'm never going to meet their expectations. But I've moved past that.
7. Making the change from Vision Science & Marketing to Psychology & HRM is probably one of the best decisions I've made in my life. 
8. Sometimes I lack self-confidence and I let those insecurities dictate my choices.
9. I have 3 stretch marks on my back. Apparently it looks like a scar, and I am very tempted to tell people that I got clawed by a bear.
10. I think sometimes I'm too nice, and people take advantage of that.
11. I have successfully convinced multiple people that I am half Chinese and half Brazilian.
12. I always try to make people feel included when I'm in a group because I know how hard it can be sometimes.
13. Although I enjoy hanging out in groups, I enjoy talking to people one on one, I feel this fosters a more intimate relationship.
14. On the weekends I work at an optical store, and help choose people choose glasses. I think I'm getting better at it, in fact I'm pretty sure in the first three months of work, I struggled to make a single sale.
15. Last year I had my first plane trip all by myself, and since then I've traveled to Melbourne, Brisbane, Gold Coast, Hong Kong and I am planning at trip to the USA.
16. I think sometimes I get caught up with doing work that I forget to stop and take a break and enjoy life with my friends & family.
17. Although sometimes I let things get to me, I get over things pretty quickly, mostly after I've talked to someone about it.
18. Sometimes instead of being an all-rounder I wish I was good at one-specific thing, that would set me a part from everyone else.
19. I have a total of 4 piercings, 3 on my left ear and 1 on my right.
20. I'm no longer in denial that my favourite colour is pink.

and if things disappear, do you just stand idly by and let them go?

hi guys,

i know it's been a really long time since i've blogged properly.

i'm a little annoyed because i tried to make a vlog for you guys, and i ended up doing 3 takes of it, and it didn't even upload :/ not sure what happened there. anyways, i am super bored! so i am just going to blog away my boredom huzzah, and if you don't want to read anymore because nothing interesting will probably come out of this post, i advise you to stop reading now. i guess  i could just translate everything from my vlog into my blog post? horay. alrighty, so first thing's first, for those of you stalkers out there who have been waiting for me to post some kind of post here you go, and i apologise for the wait. i've just been quite busy with work and you know, enjoying my holiday. so the last thing that i blogged about was freaking out about my exams - well i received my results and i'm so glad to have passed everything, even that really crappy subject that i did terribly in. but at least it's a pass, which means i shall not be taking the subject again! moving on, at the beginning of july, i also went to melbourne. it was absolutely amazing, and i would recommend you guys to definitely check it out, the food was so good! check out the grain store! :3 if you live in sydney, it's kind of like newtown, except a whole city worth of newtown. i also went away camping on my friend's farm. we got to ride int he back of utes in the open while the car was still going and we got to look at cows and calves that were super cute! also i saw a couple kangaroos running around in the open which does not happen too often for me at all. so that was pretty cool :3 and i also lit bon fires and roasted marshamallows and they were sooo good! :3 i'm also going to getting a new pair of frames soon so that shall be exciting, actually i'll probably be getting two pairs - hopefully if i'm bothered and they look good, i shall post pictures of them :3 hehe and until then my fellow lovelies.

peace out.

x

dear follow readers,

how are we today? yes i am doing a normal blog post - not comprised of too much emotion. it is going to be very direct. i feel like i haven't don't one of these in a long time. so i am currently sitting on level 6 of the main library. i am quite hungry, i haven't really had lunch. i had an original green tea mango mantra from boost, that doesn't really count does it? well i am sitting here in my break. this has by far been the longest break i have ever gone through (it's only 2 hours) kind of feels like forever. my phone is going to die soon i am on 27%, it is currently 4:30pm, how sad. i have to stay here until 8pm - joy. it is quite cold, i am pretty sure the air con is blowing right up in my face and my hands are cold, but that's okay. i am wearing my puffy khaki jacket today and it is keeping me tres warm. so i was going to play neverwinter - yes i like to play games. however i got to this part where it asked what 'stard' i wanted to be in, and then i had no idea how to proceed, so i stopped after that. it's okay though because i am going to go home and play with bk. someone told me a couple days ago that i need to be strong, so that people can rely on me. i need to be a rock. a very good rock. a rock that people can lean on, when they're upset. when they don't want to be here anymore. when they think they have nothing going for them. it is really sad when i see my friend, let us called this person Q. yes Q, how obscure. anyway, let me continue. so every time I see Q, i feel that Q is quite content. but no, this  is not the case at all. i guess it is somewhat like an iceberg, where everything lies beneath the surface. i don't know if Q is okay. I hope Q is okay. I  feel as though whatever i try to do to help Q is not working. Q is very upset. i hope no one ever has to go through that unhappiness. it seems somewhat emotionally draining. i want Q to be okay. no, i don't. i want Q to be better than okay. i want Q to be where i am, because i think Q deserves to be happy. and it's hard to imagine how people have such a dramatic effect on us. i always tell myself that people are just people and what is the most that they can do? but this is so wrong. well yes, people are people. but people are capable of destruction. people make other people hurt and cry. i don't want people to do this. oh dear, i just rewinded to the beginning of this blogpost where i said it wasn't going to be emotional. funny that it as long as i keep typing, things start to get emotional and i didn't even start out trying to be emotional. i just wanted to type a recount of how my day is, the next thing you know, i'm pouring out all this emotion. crazy isn't it? that just having a set of keys in front of me can cause me to fall victim to expression of emotion? and that is all from me. i hope you get better Q. you mean a lot of me. and i want everything to be okay. i don't know where i would be without you.

x

peace out kiddies.

"I like you :) And all your oddness"

starry night;

and yesterday when i was with you,

i told you to let go and don't hold back.

lying on the grass and looking up at the stars,

you held me up and took me places i've never been before.

 

Let the sky fall.

I'm ready, come take me down.

COME BACK.
just reading back to a year ago,
and holy.
a dark place?
yes, what's weird is that
I'm actually kinda missing all that.

hi guys :3
i went out with my girlies
yday, and in our conversation,
out of no where, one of my
friends said i looked like
an asian version of nina dobrev
from the vampire diaries!
and so yday when i came home,
i literally googled nina dobrev,
and tried to see the resemblance.
haha, and when my friend was
driving me home, i asked her
how were alike and she she said
that we're both "petite" and have
"long hair". haha, idk what do
you guys think? i need
a couple of more opinions of this.
i should really bring back me tagboard,
so people can comment on my
posts.

freak out.

hey guys,
i have my psychology mid semester exam
tomorrow, so.. tbh i'm kinda out of it..
like kinda out of it.. a lot.
Eeeps, i did the quizzes online,
and didn't do too well :/ so now i'm
kind of worried.. but i'm really lazy..
sigh... i really just want to go shopping..

why hello there my personal stalkers,

just an update on my education - haha, yes being stalkers,

ofc you'd be interested. well i've decided to change my major for science

to psychology instead of vision science - yes i've had much

time to think about it. the next thing i'm considering

changing is my major for social science from marketing

to human resources management, but i still have a bit

more time to think about it - i'll see how the rest of the semester goes.

x

aloha :)

hi guys,

so i've just finished my first week of uni for the second semester. i'm expecting this semester to be much more exciting than last semester - just because i'll be doing more things related to my future career - unless i decide to have a little mid life crisis and change streams or what not. haha, so this semester i'll be taking four subjects and these include: marketing fundamentals, vision science, optics & psychology. this week has been quite enjoyable - possibly because there were no tutorials or labs, haha i'm terrible at practicals sigh. i just made another haul video on my beauty blog/youtube, so be sure to check that out.

CLICK HERE

i'm really enjoying most of my subjects so far actually, which is really good :) i'm super dooper excited, totally going to get HD WAM this semester - HAH, just kidding, i wish. :( i'm also listening to justin bieber's album believe atm, and it's actually quite good. also my seventeen magazine came the other day, so i just leave it on my bedside table and settle for some light reading before bed, ahehe. yes there was actually no purpose to this post, except that i thought i should probably post ... haha, and until next time.

x

I want to be inspired.

Slightly in a mid life crisis (obviously being dramatic) haha, not really sure what career I want to pursue. I want to discover my inner talent and then go down that route though I'm not sure what that is at the moment. I guess I'll just have to expose myself to all things new, and discover for myself what kind of talents I have.

One to go.

I have one more exam left on Monday and I'm seriously being real chill about it which is not good at all :/ eeep. Though I'm super excited for it to be over coz I'm going to go eat Korean BBQ with the girlies so that should be exciting! :)

FCUK FAIR.

My epiphany, life can't possibly be fair. Why? What may be fair to one, may not be fair to another. And so, we continue to live on through life's disappointments and letdowns because we really have no other choice.

So there are a few things I want to talk about, just because I haven't blogged in a while. Actually I have that's a lie. Anyways, first things first. Well I'm not sure if you experience this, but sometimes when I read another person's blog, especially by someone I know. I'm usually shocked and . Especially people who open up and become either rather emotional or inspirational. Mostly because I never really thought.. I don't know, I guess the way the open up I find rather fascinating. Okay enough of that observant mumbo jumbo. Alright, moving on to more exciting news! I finished my last HSC exam today. This is the end of my 13 years of schooling. Today is the last day I will ever wear my school uniform and I admit, I will miss it. I feel so free. So now I have four months free.

Because sometimes we all hurt a little, even though we can't explain it - or atleast find it somewhat difficult to collate our feelings.We have no idea where it came from, our minds wander into a world of their own, over complicating every single detail, making assumptions and playing the worst scenarios. And how do we make it stop? Take it slow, never make assumptions, breathe deep, and trust. Cry a little if it helps, write something poetic - something noone would understand. I don't expect you to understand, after all, all this is just me trying to make it stop.

I found the most amazing person.
You're like my best friend - we can talk about the weirdest things, and it would not seem awkward. I can call you in the middle of the night, and when you pick up your phone, you'd still say "hello" in that excited voice of yours.
You're like my brother - you care about me and protect me from evil forces. I know that if I'm going to fall, you're prepared to catch me. If I ever go missing, you'll continue to look for me, even if things seem hopeless.
You're like my father - you always put me ahead of yourself, you always have my best interests at heart. I know that no matter what happens, I can always come to you, and you'll never give up on me.
Every day I wake up and think about how lucky I am to have you in my life.

dearblog,
so because i needed to bitch, i decided to take it out here. so today, this stupid thing happened, like okay, i'm not going to into the details too much, but basically, these people were kinda like "hey, we're gna move your act" and we're kinda just like "uh.. no." and they're like "but but, , so is it okay to move your act?" ... bitch really? -.- what part of no did you not initally understand? and then you try to sugar coat and say all this bullshit like "oh yeah, we don't want to move you, but is it okay? because we don't want you to get mad." ... oh joy, that's like saying "hey, i'm gonna punch you in the face, try not to cover it." like seriously? -.- it's so ridiculous.

So, i took a personality test today, and here are my results:
My personality is 56% extravert, 38% inituitive, 75% feeling & 11% judging.
And here are a list of suggested occupations:

• Counseling
• Psychology
  
• Social Work
• Education
• Physician
• Science
• Computer Programming
• Management
• Fashion Merchandising
• Politics < OH YEAH GNA GO FOR THIS ONE :L
  

So that was pretty interesting, if you want to take a personality test too, just click HERE.