Birthday Presents :3

I have the best friends. ♥

hi there :3

Nothing

We first met, a couple years ago.
I thought you were what I needed.
You were always warm.
You made me smile.  
You gave me this feeling, that I was missing.
But the truth is you drowned in bitter sweet water.
                     
You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,     
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

And even now, two years have passed.
I thought we could move pass it.
You were always cold.
You made me scream.
You gave me this feeling, I wasn't looking for.
But the truth is, you drowned me in bitter sweet water.

You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

And now I see it  
Written so clearly.           
That you never cared.
You were never there.      
You just wanted to drown out my light.

You always tried to bring me down.
You thought you were so big,
Standing on top of the mountain.
But the truth is you are no one
The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

The truth is you are nothing
You mean nothing, to me.

Adventure Club; One of my favourite songs from Adventure Club.

Studying for my last exam, which is tomorrow.

Super excited, want this all to be over.

Can't wait.

Red Ombre Hair?

Really contemplating whether to get this done.

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American Horror Story.

So, I'm just going to rave about American Horror Story. I started this series a long time ago back when the first season came out and I was terrified in the first season, I couldn't even watch the opening. But I eventually got used to the dark, gore-y supernatural themes. I'm not sure why I stopped watching it, but since then they have made another two seasons. For some reason, I decided to watch the latest season American Horror Story: Coven. There are only 5 episodes out at the moment, but it was definitely captivating. It's dark and sinister this. At first, I was a bit sad that I found out that each season would have a different story, but it's made me really appreciate the actors and their ability to mould to a completely different persona. Although only some characters come back into the the next seasons, it's a relief to know that they're still there in spirit and that they're not completely dead. Seeing the character interactions makes me feel as though they they've been resurrected into another place, and the feelings I have for certain characters still linger. I definitely recommend it, if you like scary movies, it's a bit dark and contains sexual references. But if you can get past that, really appreciate the series because it is absolutely amazing.

x

Acts I want to see at Stereosonic.

DAY 1

1. Nicky Romero
2. Calvin Harris
3. Sebastian Ingrosso
4. Zedd
5. Ferry Corsten
6. David Guetta

DAY 2

1. Armin Van Buuren

2. Alesso

3. Gareth Emery

4. Krewella

5. Axwell

6. Afrojack

 

 * Subject to change as I listen to more EDM. :3

Michael Kors x Kate Spade New York Splurge?

Yup, that's right, you guessed it! The other day, I woke up and decided to reward myself by buying a Michael Kors Selma - Navy Tote and a Kate Spade New York Lacey Brightspot Ave - Pink Peony Wallet. So if you guys remember, i posted about the Michael Kors bag a bit more than a month ago. And it's been a love hate relationship. My feelings for it have subsided as I've seen people in the streets rock the look, and it just hasn't worked very well for them. 

 

But last week, I had my mid-semester break and I spent 4/7 days at work, and mind you I was at the new store as well which appears to be in the most isolated part of the shopping centre. So it was pretty much comprised of me sitting there for 8.5 hours straight having nothing to do. Clean? Yes I cleaned, but seeing as all the stock is new, I pretty much caught myself trying to wipe away non-existent dust from frames and surfaces. 

 

So I decided as a reward I would buy a Michael Kors bag. And I know it's quite expensive, hey don't get me wrong I worked pretty hard for this. And I decided to get a wallet as well because my wallet has pretty much died, and I'm running out of pockets to put my cards. I will hopefully do a first impressions post about what I think about my goodies once they arrive, hopefully they do soon. I am super excited. And well I actually was going to reward myself after my intense session of assessments about 3 weeks ago, but I decided to push it away... And here I am, giving in to temptation. But I think it will be a good investment. Just like the day when I bought 2 Marc Jacobs Sunshine toilettes and a Tiffany and Co. necklace on the same day. They have made great additions to my daily use just in case anyone was wondering.

And until next time beautiful people.

x

 

Hi guys,

Yes, I have been playing Maple Story. I woke up one morning and had this sudden urge to play it. So I've been playing with BK. And here's my character! Her name is lindmonster, a dawn warrior. I only started playing 2 weeks ago, squishing it in when I can. I think I'm in love with her. HAHA I ended up spending NX cash on myself. I initially bought it for BK, but apparently you can't gift unless you buy an actual gift card at a store which is super annoying. I'm only level 63 at the moment. I use to play if you rewind back like 5-6 years ago. And I remember it was so difficult to level, I was only level 33 and I couldn't get passed that and I played for ages. So if you guys are looking to play a game, definitely get into Maple Story! It's become so easy to level now, and it's not just grinding anymore. The quests are really cool, and you get really awesome items that you would otherwise would have to find via item drops. And yeah if your character is in Scania, feel free to add me :) And maybe we can party quest. Until next time, stay smiling.

x

and if things disappear, do you just stand idly by and let them go?

I'm good enough.

I think I'm doing okay. I just need to do it again.

And I want you to know that it's okay, because you didn't let the fear of getting striked out keep you from playing the game.

 

Happy after my last midsem :3 

 

So, I've never really been great academically. I mean sure, I'm not at the bottom either, but performing academically has never really been my strong point. Sure I can get credits, but being surrounded by people who excel academically who get high distinctions and distinctions effortlessly and all the time, I guess it's just like being slapped in the face. I've always hated take home assessments just because you never know where people get help from, but with quizzes and tests, you either know it or you don't. And what I've found really annoying is that what I feel that I excel at is being social, having emotional intelligence. I feel as these aspects aren't really talked about in our society. It's always "Oh what mark did you get?" I just feel like I've always been a B grade when it comes to academia, but I want to be more than that. I was talking to my mum about how I think being a "good person" is so under rated especially during high school. I mean my parents were never really disappointed in me, I guess they kind of always knew books were never really strong point. I've been told on numerous occasions I can conduct myself really well in social atmospheres, I know how to make people feel comfortable. But no one's going to assess you on that. Going to get a degree is all about how you perform academically and it really sucks. In fact, I don't really think I'm particularly good at anything. That's why I really want to get this, because it shows that I'm actually good at something. People want to work with me because I have some sort of talent. I'm so enthusiastic and optimistic, I'm motivated and I feel that grades just dictate a lot where you can go in life.

Detention Centres

I know that usually I post about more girly or emotional things. But I just want to share my experiences with you guys. So for one of my assignments at Uni, I'm have to write a paper about the impact of detention on asylum seekers. Prior of this assignment, I didn't really know much about detention centres - I'm quite a hermit when it comes to news. Before this assignment, my definition of asylum seekers in detention centres had always been of prison but so much better, minus the prison cells etc. I mean if anything, these people aren't criminals, in fact they're fleeing their own country in fear for their lives. So really, there's no harm right? Furthermore, Australia has a little population of only 22 million, we have so much space. But it turns out, after doing so much research for this assignment, the conditions of detention centres is terrible. I was so shocked to find out that it's pretty much like prison but 100 times worse. Detainees attempting to commit suicide, people sewing their lips together to protest, self harm in front of children? What the fuck is going on. We're not living in a developing country. Australia has been crticised for the conditions of it's detention centres on numerous occsaions. As a country who has fewer asylum seekers than most of the Western countries, the laws regarding detention are ridiciously strict. Urgh, I'm just so annoyed at how inhumane we are. The boat policies by current government are ridiculous. Why the hell would you send people who are fleeing for their life to Papua New Guinea where there's high rates of crime, sexual assault and murder? We freaken tell our our citizens to exercise extreme caution and highly suggest not to go there, yet we're sending asylum seekers there. I just don't get it. Fucking hell, I'd like to think we don't live in a corrupted society. Okay, end rant. I hope for those who are social hermits like myself, hopefully this has opened your eyes.And hopefully, I'm creating awareness about this. Anyways, til next time.

x

 

My Current Obsession: Michael Kors

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Currently crushing on: MICHAEL Michael Kors Large Selma in Navy.

I'm totally in love with this bag. The amount of YouTube videos I've watched reviewing this bag, is countless. I'm so annoyed that the MK Store in Sydney doesn't have this in stock. Well they don't have this colour, the last time I went they only had purple and the blue black tone one. It's so unfortunate that this is sold out at DJ's as well and  I have no idea, well they have no idea when they're going to get it in stock again. Turns out they rotate stock, so it's pretty much waiting for something that MIGHT happen. I might be purchasing this on Neiman Marcus, but it's going to be $425, and just to add the Australian dollar isn't really helping.

Sigh. Keep you guys posted. And if you don't hear anything, probably means my obsession has subsided. 

Keep smiling.

x

Dotti Paper Bag Pant

 

Dotti Paper Bag Pant - $69.96

Making me look like a little office lady. 

And if love is a game, you can never win.

Ellie Goulding - Hearts Without Chains (Official Audio)

Song of the Day: Hearts Without Chains - Ellie Goulding
So much raw emotion.

Q&A with the BF

Hi guyths, 

I want you all to meet my special boy friend.
His name is Brendan.
I'm going to be doing a Q&A with him for this post.


L: If you were stranded on an island, what 3 items would you bring with you?
B: I would bring an axe, a bed, and a girlfriend (my girlfriend).

L: How would you describe yourself in 5 words.
B: I am organised. I am a good listener. I am attentive to detail. I am quick on my feet, thinking wise. I am logical.

L: What were your first impressions of me?
B: Very cheerful, bubbly, cute, little Asian girl.

L: If you could be good at one thing, what would it be?
B: I'd be good at dancing.

L: Describe our relationship.
B: Strong commitment. A lot trust. We love each other very much. We've gone through a lot of hardships to get to where we are, so there's a lot of foundation. I see us going very far together.

L: Upon meeting me, did you think we would be in the relationship that we are now?
B: There was potential, but i didn't know we would get this far this quickly.

L: What's an interesting trait that you have?
B: I get very irritate when I don't know something.

L: What are 10 things that you look for in a girl?
B: Personality, nice smile, makes me laugh like funny, a bit cheeky, prefer cute over hot, cultured, has nice teeth, very caring, likes to have fun, slightly adventurous.

L: What's a motto that you like to live by?
B: Seize the day.

L: Any last words?
B: Glad to be in this relationship, and part of your life.

We've also started a joint blog together, we only made it yesterday, so it's still under construction.
But you can find it here:
http://bybkandlj.blogspot.com.

Nicky Romero - DJ Mag 2013 #VoteNicky

If you haven't already, vote NICKY #1.
How can you resist that little cutie?

Hi guys & dolls,

just letting you guys now, 

I will be trying to vlog and blog more frequently.

There have been so many videos that

I've been wanting to post up but for some reason

they haven't been able to upload.

So, until I find an alternative way to upload them,

it'll just be blogging for now. 

Suffering withdrawal symptoms.

And how do you cope with all these feelings?

SOTD: I'm Not Ready - Delta Goodrem

Song of the Day: I'm Not Ready - Delta Goodrem

Guess who's got to wear reading glasses? :$

I want to be pretty like the other girls.

My current celebrity crush;

Oh NICKY ROMERO.

Going to Stereosonic!

And I'll see all of you lovelies there.

x

 

hi guys,

i know it's been a really long time since i've blogged properly.

i'm a little annoyed because i tried to make a vlog for you guys, and i ended up doing 3 takes of it, and it didn't even upload :/ not sure what happened there. anyways, i am super bored! so i am just going to blog away my boredom huzzah, and if you don't want to read anymore because nothing interesting will probably come out of this post, i advise you to stop reading now. i guess  i could just translate everything from my vlog into my blog post? horay. alrighty, so first thing's first, for those of you stalkers out there who have been waiting for me to post some kind of post here you go, and i apologise for the wait. i've just been quite busy with work and you know, enjoying my holiday. so the last thing that i blogged about was freaking out about my exams - well i received my results and i'm so glad to have passed everything, even that really crappy subject that i did terribly in. but at least it's a pass, which means i shall not be taking the subject again! moving on, at the beginning of july, i also went to melbourne. it was absolutely amazing, and i would recommend you guys to definitely check it out, the food was so good! check out the grain store! :3 if you live in sydney, it's kind of like newtown, except a whole city worth of newtown. i also went away camping on my friend's farm. we got to ride int he back of utes in the open while the car was still going and we got to look at cows and calves that were super cute! also i saw a couple kangaroos running around in the open which does not happen too often for me at all. so that was pretty cool :3 and i also lit bon fires and roasted marshamallows and they were sooo good! :3 i'm also going to getting a new pair of frames soon so that shall be exciting, actually i'll probably be getting two pairs - hopefully if i'm bothered and they look good, i shall post pictures of them :3 hehe and until then my fellow lovelies.

peace out.

x

Song x Video of the Day - Burn ; Ellie Goulding.

If you've known me for a while, I think it's safe to say I'm not your average girl.

Becoming an insomniac because you're afraid of what the night encompasses.

This last exam is stressing me out like crazy. Statistics was so crazy hard, and I'm so scared this last exam is going to be death.

Exam Talk.

And I'm 1 down, only 3 more to go. 

And it'll all be done 8 days. :3 

Stressed oh so very stressed for exams. I can't wait until the 24th of June.

• The Hills
• The Winery
• Hyde Park
• Train Ride

And sometimes I ask myself 'how did we get here?'

Wtf.

"And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be okay.

Yeah I try to believe you, not today."

Tomorrow - Avril Lavigne

The moment when everything is so perfect and you go and fuck things up.

I know I already said this, but I need to tell myself that I can't be selfish with you. You deserve someone who makes you happy.

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY :3

I guess this is what they call insomnia. Being awake in the late hours of the night. I don't really know why I can't fall a sleep. Perhaps it's your absence that lingers on my mind and refuses to let go. Or perhaps it's my mind running wild and free, stopping at no costs as it embarks on its journey for immortality.

I know that with you I can't be selfish.

i want something to remind me that you're always here with me.

thanks for being the best school ever SOM.

-.-

dear follow readers,

how are we today? yes i am doing a normal blog post - not comprised of too much emotion. it is going to be very direct. i feel like i haven't don't one of these in a long time. so i am currently sitting on level 6 of the main library. i am quite hungry, i haven't really had lunch. i had an original green tea mango mantra from boost, that doesn't really count does it? well i am sitting here in my break. this has by far been the longest break i have ever gone through (it's only 2 hours) kind of feels like forever. my phone is going to die soon i am on 27%, it is currently 4:30pm, how sad. i have to stay here until 8pm - joy. it is quite cold, i am pretty sure the air con is blowing right up in my face and my hands are cold, but that's okay. i am wearing my puffy khaki jacket today and it is keeping me tres warm. so i was going to play neverwinter - yes i like to play games. however i got to this part where it asked what 'stard' i wanted to be in, and then i had no idea how to proceed, so i stopped after that. it's okay though because i am going to go home and play with bk. someone told me a couple days ago that i need to be strong, so that people can rely on me. i need to be a rock. a very good rock. a rock that people can lean on, when they're upset. when they don't want to be here anymore. when they think they have nothing going for them. it is really sad when i see my friend, let us called this person Q. yes Q, how obscure. anyway, let me continue. so every time I see Q, i feel that Q is quite content. but no, this  is not the case at all. i guess it is somewhat like an iceberg, where everything lies beneath the surface. i don't know if Q is okay. I hope Q is okay. I  feel as though whatever i try to do to help Q is not working. Q is very upset. i hope no one ever has to go through that unhappiness. it seems somewhat emotionally draining. i want Q to be okay. no, i don't. i want Q to be better than okay. i want Q to be where i am, because i think Q deserves to be happy. and it's hard to imagine how people have such a dramatic effect on us. i always tell myself that people are just people and what is the most that they can do? but this is so wrong. well yes, people are people. but people are capable of destruction. people make other people hurt and cry. i don't want people to do this. oh dear, i just rewinded to the beginning of this blogpost where i said it wasn't going to be emotional. funny that it as long as i keep typing, things start to get emotional and i didn't even start out trying to be emotional. i just wanted to type a recount of how my day is, the next thing you know, i'm pouring out all this emotion. crazy isn't it? that just having a set of keys in front of me can cause me to fall victim to expression of emotion? and that is all from me. i hope you get better Q. you mean a lot of me. and i want everything to be okay. i don't know where i would be without you.

x

peace out kiddies.

'I don't want to be with anyone else. I love you so much. You make me so happy.'

And I think what hurts the most is that I'm meant to be able to come to you to talk about anything and everything. But how the fuck do you suppose I do that if you don't even listen to me? If you don't even care, and you're fucking oblivious to fucking everything that goes on in my life? How the fuck is that suppose to work? Yeah tell me when you fucking know the answer. Because I'm fucking sick of it.

Never in my life have I been so scared to lose something that means so much to me.

And maybe it's because it's still the early hours of the day, or maybe this is really something different, something special that no one could understand no matter how much they tried to.

I feel like this overwhelming feeling consumes me, ties me down and it won't let me go, but it also has the power to make me feel things I've never felt before.

☼

Not a sound, you go by unnoticed.
But when you speak, it's warm.
I can feel you radiate your sun rays.
You chase the clouds away.
There's rainbow on the other side.
You run across the stars.
And explode like a supernova.
Your magic lights up the sky,
You shine bright like the sun.
And even in the darkest hours,
We see your light shining like diamonds.
And even though you're gone,
You're still here.
You're still here.

Last night was no doubt, amazing.
All it took was a little courage to embrace entire adventure.

"Right from the start
You were a thief

You stole my heart."

P!nk - Just Give Me a Reason ft Nate Ruess

Because I don't feel like I'm of any significance to you.

Never Know

Woke up this morning to grey skies.

Rain drops dance along my window sill.

Could feel my happiness drain away.

Nothing left but this broken core.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

Rush home to be with you.

Your absence lingers, it feels numb.

Could feel my happiness drain away.

Nothing left but this broken core.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

And all I wanted was for you

To give a damn.

Figure out things weren't right.

Just wanted to hear your voice.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

And what if we're not here tomorrow.

All those words left unsaid.

Is it really okay to leave them?

Now I'll never know, I'll never know.

"I wish I was strong enough to lift, not one, but both of us.

Some day I will be strong enough to life, not one, but both of us."

Both of Us - B.o.B ft Taylor Swift.

To be honest, I'm petrified.

I'm so afraid.
I don't want to lose this magic.

If i turn away, just for a moment,

What if everything is gone?

And sometimes I wonder how

I even managed to even find 

Something so perfect.

I stay up to watch the champagne stars.
Watch them drift through the night sky.
Take me to the unknown.
Let me live for this moment.

And this is how our story goes,
When our fingers interlock,
I feel our hearts locking too.
Tell me you can feel the sparks.
I feel it raining butterflies.
Let me lay in the rain, wash away all the insecurities.
It doesn't matter because we got this far.

◀◀ H1M; 7413;

• Waking up way too early.
• Silver Linings Playbook.
• Losing my phone.
• Finding my phone.
• Darling harbour.
• End of daylight savings.
• Talking on the pier.
• All smiles.

"Why worry now? You'll be safe
Hold my hand, just in case
And we won't fade into darkness."

Fade into Darkness - Avicii

Happy little kitties.

it's been a crazy couple days to say the least.

definitely been an emotional roller coaster.

but hey, back down to earth now.

and i really hope it stays like this for a little while.

In the mood for 100 Questions;

1. Last kiss
BK ♥
2. Last phone call
Simone
3. Last text message
Kevin
4. Last song you listened to
Better Half of Me (Club Remix) - Dash Berlin ft. Jonathan Mendelsohn
5. Last time you cried
Last week.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice
No, I'm not that kind of person.
7. Been cheated on
Yeah, it kind of hurt.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it
Yes, unfortunately.
9. Lost someone special
No, they seem to always come back to me.
10. Been depressed
I don't think I really go through depression, I get over things too quickly.
11. Been drunk and threw up
Nope, I have self control.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend 
Yes - shout out to YS & my new psyc buddies!
17. Laughed until you cried
Only with my DS & in the psyc2081 lecture with Daniel & Alanna.
18. Met someone who changed you
I don't think they changed me, but they definitely changed my perceptions.
19. Found out who your true friends were
I think I always knew who they were. ♥
20. Found out someone was talking about you
Haha, this one.
26. What did you do for your last Birthday
Ran some errands & had dinner with a friend.
27. What time did you wake up today ?
Cannot recall, sometime this morning.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
Mid year break. :3
30. Last time you saw your all of your siblings at the same time
A couple weeks, actually. :(
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
The strictness of my parents.
32. What are you listening to right now
This Is Miami vs. Ordinary People (Dashup) - LTN (D-Mad Remix) vs. Sander Kleinenberg
34. Who’s getting on your nerves right now
Right now, I'm a very happy girl.
35. Most visited webpage
Possibly Facebook x Youtube
36. Fav colour
Pink, I think I go through phases, but for right now, I'm proud to say pink :)
37. Nicknames
Lindmonster, Lindaface, LJ, Lam Lam
38. Relationship Status
In a Relationship
39. Zodiac sign  
Sagittarius :3
40. Male or female
Female
41. Primary school

42. Secondary School

43. High school/college
Only the best college in Sydney.
44. Write w/e you want here
:3
46. Height:
160cm? :3
Do you have a crush on someone?
Crushing on my boyf?
48. What do you like about yourself
My face x personality.
49. Piercings
Yes! 3 on my left ear, and 1 on my right.
50. Tattoos
Soon to come? :)
51. Righty or lefty
Righty

FIRSTS:
53. First piercing
My ears
54. First best friend
Jessica
55. First hookup
I don't do hookups.
56. First Bestfriend;
Awks, why you ask same question again? :/

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating ;
Spaghetti :3
60. Drinking
Out of my YS 'The Quest Begins' bottle!
61. I’m about to
 Answer this question.
62. Listening to
I swear, I've answered this question like 3 times. Ticking Clocks (Dash Berlin's Essential 'Warmplay' Rework) - Dash Berlin vs. Coldplay
63. Waiting for ;
Something interesting to happen.

YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids
Yes please :3
65. Get married
In due time
66. Career
Something to do with HR, that would be ideal.

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes
Let's go for eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses
Kisses & Hugs, don't make me choose, it's too hard.
69. Shorter or taller
Taller
70. Older or Younger
Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous
Spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms
Stomach
73. Sensitive or loud
I could do either.
74. Hook-up or relationship
Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger
Not that I can recall.
77. Drank hard liquor
Vodka counts right?
78. Lost glasses/contacts
Have not :3
79. Sex on first date
Oh hells no.
80. Broken someone’s heart
Several, I'm such a heartbreaker. :/
82. Been arrested
Nope
83. Turned someone down
Yeah
84. Cried when someone died
.
85. Fallen for a friend
Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself
To an extent
87. Miracles
They help me wake up in the morning.
88. Love at first sight
Gosh, this is so cheesy.
89. Heaven
Yes
90. Santa Clause
Haha, a little old for this.
91. Kiss on the first date
It's possible.
92. Angels
Yeah

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Someone You Pray Everyday For
I don't pray everyday. :/
95. Did you sing today
Yes, yes I did, I sang Clarity - Zedd
96. Who From All Your Ex’s have You Cared The Most About
J
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go ?
Like rewind a week, and then play it again, and don't let things fuck up.
98. Out Of Everything In The World What Do You Wish For?
End world poverty.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
To be honest, I am petrified.
100. Do you like the way you look?
There's always room for improvement, but I am happy with what I've been given.

my underlying love for adventure club, alesso & dash berlin.

we are the dreamers.

So much love for this guy!

"I like you :) And all your oddness"

You don't always need to try and justify the actions of others. Sometimes things aren't meant to make sense. Which at times may be quite frustrating, but I guess that's how the world works. We'll never really understand the motives of others, we just need to learn to trust.

This feeling I can't explain, it consumes me.

'I can see that you make him really happy.' - hendo.

I don't know about tomorrow, all I know is that today, I couldn't be happier. And that's all that really matters right now.

why did things have to fuck up, they were going so well.

Stalkers?

being silly with mah spoon.

I know we should forgive, but should we risk it if there's a chance we might get hurt? I don't know if I'm ready for that. At times like these, I just wish we could all get a long. That everyone had that one someone to be with and we didn't have to fight. But maybe it's these fights that help us figure out whether all this was worth it. In the end, I hope we all find that one person we've been waiting so long for.

 

"And even if the stars fall to the ground, they'll illuminate the world, and you'll be able to see me."

what the hell just happened?

Destination Far A Way.

At times like these I wish I was bullet proof. And I feel as though my lungs are closing in on me. It's getting harder to make sense of everything. I still don't understand how we got here. The way the music takes away everything from me. I just want to let it all go. Keep spinning until my head goes numb. Stop the blood running through my veins, i think it would be a beautiful thing.

why does she need to be in your life?

I want to let it all go.

Need to cover up, stay in this cocoon.

I don't want to show you all of me.

Put up all my walls, not ready to get burnt.

Scared of the beast inside, restrain, control yourself.

bkxlj;

starry night;

and yesterday when i was with you,

i told you to let go and don't hold back.

lying on the grass and looking up at the stars,

you held me up and took me places i've never been before.

 

this continuous turning in your stomach, but there's no way of letting go.

And i feel like i'm drowning out without you.

never let yourself lose the moon while counting the stars.

hello my lovely followers of the internet,

as you may or may not have noticed,

i now have a domain name for my blog - how exciting!

i feel like after 4 years, it's about time for

a little change, and what better way to do it

by getting rid of the ".blogspot"

haha, that is all.

peace out.

x

march's wishlist

Dreaming Floral Skater Skirt - $27

http://www.tobi.com/product/49201-tobi-dreaming-floral-skater-skirt?color_id=65534

 

Liz Wet Look Scuba Box Pleat Skater Skirt - $24

http://www.boohoo.com/aus/clothing/skirts/icat/skirts/evening-skirts/liz-wet-look-scuba-box-pleat-skater-skirt/invt/azz57985

 

Coming Up Floral Top - $29

http://www.tobi.com/product/49790-tobi-coming-up-floral-top?color_id=66621 

Flow and Mesh Peplum Top - $31

http://www.tobi.com/product/49135-tobi-flow-and-mesh-peplum-top?color_id=65429

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Fall into your arms, smile up at the clouds.
Feeling nothing but your eyes on me,
With my ear pressed to your chest
I can hear your heart beat.
Open your hand, let my fingers
Run against yours,
Let them run wild.
Pull me a little closer
Breathe me in,
And let's run away together.

 

Every step we take closer to the rain fall ends in a drought drying us out.

Wanted - Hunter Hayes

'Cause I wanna wrap you up

Wanna kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

And I wanna call you mine

Wanna hold your hand forever

And never let you forget it

Yeah, I, I wanna make you feel wanted

SOTD: Left You Acoustic - Color of Clouds

Left You (Acoustic Version)

Pandora Bracelet Design.

 

Ideal Pandora Bracelet

it's going to be a long process, but i'll get there.

"people are weird."

my solution to every problem.

february's wishlist.

 

Ella Studded Fisherman Jumper - $30

http://www.boohoo.com/aus/sale/autumn-winter/icat/sale-autumn-winter/autumn-winter/ella-studded-fisherman-jumper/invt/azz55973

 

Gemma Floral Print Blouse With Gold Studded Front - $44

http://www.boohoo.com/aus/tops/shirts+blouses/icat/shirts-and-blouses/shirts-and-blouses/gemma-floral-print-blouse-with-gold-studed-front/invt/azz56335

 

Green Fur Hooded Long Sleeve Zipper Drawstring Coat - $69
http://www.sheinside.com/Green-Fur-Hooded-Long-Sleeve-Zipper-Drawstring-Coat-p-102896-cat-1735.html

Katie Box Pleat Skater Skirt - $24

http://www.boohoo.com/aus/smaller-sizes/icat/smaller-sizes/day-skirts/katie-box-pleat-skater-skirt/invt/azz53420 

YS Training Camp.

       Friday 1st February

• Chilled with Julita & Tanya on the bus there.
• Trivia Night - Akaash totally owned the night.
• Drinks & Dance - totally got dehydrated, but it was all good.
  
  Saturday 2nd February
• Op Shop Ball 
• Won the best dance competition - circus acts; break dancing & splits.
• Dancing through circles of people.
• Rode on Benji's shoulders to Wonderwall - Oasis.
• Freaken amazing.
• Went out to the lake.
• D&M with Julita, Kate & Tash.
• D&M with my DS :3
• D&M with Teresa, Tanya, Loz & Phil til 4AM.

 Sunday 3rd February

• Myuna Rally ; Skittles, Charades, Rock Band, Chairs, Silver Coins, Balloons, Blind, Obstacle Course.
• Won against the Narnians in Myuna Rally. :3
• Played Mafia on the bus & won :)

I shall post photos when my friends post up photos!

waking up wanting this as a tatt.

'should be lucky' - joseph :3

why do we let bad things happen to good people? you must think nothing goes on behind that smile. but how do i even begin to explain anything that's going on in my head? when there are too many strings left untied. where nothing is absolute and all we have is hope. but all that comes with hope is disappointment. and how are we as humans meant to deal with this constant rejection? do we let it pile up hoping it'll one day disappear? but all we are left with is hurt and sorrow.

kiss me like you wanna be loved.

ed sheeran.

i want to believe that there is good in the world, and we're not selfish humans.

i don't care if this is blogspot, i'm linking my tumblr posts.

i realised how much i've missed tumblr.

all images & gifs belong to their respective owners.

 

 

This song makes me so sad, but i'm totally up for it right now.
SOTD: Skinny Love-  Birdy

is it possible for two people to think too much?

so much that it consumes them and leaves them with nothing?

500 Days of Summer

Tom: We don't have to put a label on it that's fine, I get it. I just need some consistency.
Summer: I know.
Tom: I need to know that you're not going to wake up in the morning and feel differently.
Summer: I can't give you that. Nobody can.

VLOG#4 - Haul & Hand Me Downs.

VLOG#4 - Haul & Hand Me Downs.

People are complicated.

Would love cure us of this complexity?

They said she's good for you.

When Fear has you in chains.

Yeah Myi.

'If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now.' - 500 Days Of Summer

VLOG #3 - Getting trolled?

omgah.

booked tickets.

:)

500 Days Of Summer Quotes.

Credit: http://instagram.com/p/Uc35YCqLfz/

Credit: http://instagram.com/p/UIByADISbC/

00:43:03 I don't know.

00:43:06 Who cares?

00:43:08 I'm happy. Aren't you happy? Yeah.

00:43:12 Good.

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It's okay because I'm afraid of myself and I don't want you to witness this other side of me.

tolerance

seems to be running low. where's the reassurance?

im really nitm for this bullshit.

i can't even comprehend what's going througb my head.

dare you to move.

Under the influence.

'You deserve to be loved, even if it's not by me,' I cried. To what extent did being intoxicated make me realise that all you ever lacked was love? It made me realise Trust no longer comes around, but rather Doubt comes knocking instead. And as scared as I am, I tell myself that Okay will arrive, it's just a matter of time.

All I want, is the taste that your lips allow.

VLOG #2 - New Year, New Hair.

Like are you trying to piss me off? FFS.

It feels like I'm standing at the edge of a cliff. And I don't know whether to stay here or jump into the unknown, down where all there is is gravity, pulling me towards complete nothingness. I want to believe that underneath these layers and layers of selfishness is a selfless individual, one that is held back by fear. Afraid of being used and then left in complete darkness. Align your fingers with mine and I can show you that everything's going to be okay. I guess all I can really hope is that you can save me from what I fear the most.

Rewind back to the 6th of January ; Beach Day

ft. Fi, Loz, David & Benji