I miss you.

I think I stuffed things up.

Hey, I think I like you. :)

What always happens, life.

Marry me .

And where do we go from here?
Because things are slipping.

dearblog;
did i fcuk things up? :S

dearblog;
I feel weird on the inside. :S

dearblog;

I feel like I'm neglecting my blogspot, and I'm moving onto tumblr. :(
But blogspot I do love you, you were my first blog, even though it wasn't
this one, when I read back to my earlier entries I laugh at how silly
and immature I was. But sometimes I go back and read the lyrics I use
to write and I ask myself is that even me? I guess sometimes you lose
yourself in your emotions, and really you have no control, and you express
whatever you're feeling because that's the only way you can truly be yourself.
But I promise to write more, even if it might not be the most entertaining
entries, but maybe I should blog about my life here, and I shall leave tumblr
to reblog-ing. Well today is my cousin's birthday. :) He's turning 16, that little kid.
So I'm just going to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUSTIN. :)
And I'm going to spend the rest of the day writing up notes for chemistry and physics,
and showering and taking photos with the camera jamie bought me because he's the
most awesome person in the world, and he lost 4kgs saving for me :S he didn't have to
do that, really. Now I'm just excited to fatten him back up 8D

http://aloeflower.tumblr.com

Dear blog,

I think I died today, after finding out my mathematics extension 1 mark, I'm a dead woman walking.

RAWRRAWRRANT.

I've had enough of you, I thought I could live with you there but obviously I can't. I thought things would be okay, but they're not going to be. I thought you'd leave me alone but you're not going to. I hate you, I fucking hate you and I hope you die in a hole. You think you're so good but really you're not any better than me or anyone else for that matter. So why don't you stop trying to claim what's not yours and fucking go back to the fucking hole you came out of because no ones likes you.

The only way I can help you, is if you let me in.

JAMIENGUYEN ♥ .

is my boyfriend. And I feel as if I’m only truly myself when he’s around. Even if the real me isn’t someone who’s happy all the time. Even if I cry over spilt milk, even if I scream my lungs out because I get angry. Today you took me to a place where I can’t begin to describe, you told me I was beautiful and you didn’t want to be with anyone besides me. You told me that I didn’t have to hide from you and you loved me. You’d listen to me go on about absolutely anything and you told me I could ask you anything. Today I felt silly and hid under the blankets, but you didn’t let me hide for long and step by step, you eventually got me to come out. You held my hand and told me it was okay, that it was normal.You held my up and spun me around like a little kid. You carried me like a princess and I know it was hard and it wasn’t for long but the fact that you tried made me smile. Lying next to you with out arms crossed over and our fingers entwined I didn’t want it to end. That’s when I realised that what we have is beautiful and no one can take that away from us.

ILOVEYOUJAMIENGUYEN.

Whatever we have, I don't know what it is anymore.

I really don't like you, no really, who do you think you are?

Dear blog;

I don't know what to do, things are crashing down and it seems like everything is just getting worse and I'm stuck in the middle of it. If I could do anything that I wanted to do, I'd run around like a sped and pretend that nothing in the world matters, I wanna drink until I'm drunk off my face. I'm not going to cry, I'm going to do what makes me smile, going to shine going to be the best I can be without you. I wanna sleep and never wake up, I wanna dream and make sure they last a life time. I wanna run in the rain and pretend that I'm not going to get sick. I wanna get soaked by the rain fall and still be able to get up. I wanna fall backwards and fall into someone's arms without having to hesitate. I wanna drown in the water and not be able to feel it taking over me. I wanna feel my blood rush and take risks. I wanna scream and be heard by the rest of the world. I wanna fly and let the wind take me. I wanna forget everything bad thats happened and push on. I wanna be stuck on a rollercoaster just to feel all the blood rush to my head. I wanna see you read this and feel what I feel.

If promises are made to be broken,
why do we make them?
Because there's that one part of us
that longs and wishes for the other
person to keep their end of the bargain.

If LOST was a destination, I'd be there.

Tax`d off Jaye.

Appearance:
I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life :
I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've been to America.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I liked them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't like them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from someone.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I've smoked a cigarette.
I've smoked pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.

There can only be one correct answer.

de·sire

–verb (used with object)

1.

to wish or long for; crave; want.

–noun
3.a longing or craving, as for something that brings satisfaction or enjoyment

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