Dear blog;

I don't know what to do, things are crashing down and it seems like everything is just getting worse and I'm stuck in the middle of it. If I could do anything that I wanted to do, I'd run around like a sped and pretend that nothing in the world matters, I wanna drink until I'm drunk off my face. I'm not going to cry, I'm going to do what makes me smile, going to shine going to be the best I can be without you. I wanna sleep and never wake up, I wanna dream and make sure they last a life time. I wanna run in the rain and pretend that I'm not going to get sick. I wanna get soaked by the rain fall and still be able to get up. I wanna fall backwards and fall into someone's arms without having to hesitate. I wanna drown in the water and not be able to feel it taking over me. I wanna feel my blood rush and take risks. I wanna scream and be heard by the rest of the world. I wanna fly and let the wind take me. I wanna forget everything bad thats happened and push on. I wanna be stuck on a rollercoaster just to feel all the blood rush to my head. I wanna see you read this and feel what I feel.