2011 New Year's Resolutions

• Study harder :)
• Watch less TV shows
• Eat more and try to gain weight 8)
• Save money towards life savings :L
  
• No assuming
• Think positive
• No jumping to conclusions. :)
• Pay attention in class, especially chemistry. (x
• Smile moreeeeee (:
• Appreciate the people I have in my life :D
  
• Keep steady friendships (8
• Spend less time on the computer :D
  

here's a machine gun, shoot me so i can't feel pain anymore.

im in like with you :o

hold my hand.

looking back I feel like an idiot, you told me you'd hurt me, and I said it was alright.
when the hell is it ever alright? is it after you've crushed me and i've turned to dust? urgh, i'm so naive, never going to say something that stupid again.

yeah, i got the message loud and clear, you want nothing to do with me.

i don't think about anyone when i read/see/hear things about love. i'd just like those things to happen to me.

alone

Oh dear, he's soooo hot. :)

happy holidays kids :)

yeah, why do i bother?

Seth Green

lie

/laɪ/ Show Spelled [lahy] noun, verb, lied, ly·ing.

–noun
a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth; a falsehood.

li·ar

/ˈlaɪər/ Show Spelled[lahy-er]

–noun

a person who tells lies.

i never had a chance did i? this was all pretend and i just fell for it.

I'm kinda in love with michael & alex & I wanted to get this song when I first heard it, but I couldn't find it, but now that i've got it, sharing is caring kids. :)

No Easy Way - Digital Daggers

i'm falling for you.

I'm sorry.

i'm done making excuses.

this is what's going to happen, I'm going to hate you.
something's going to happen between us, I'm going to forgive you.
you're going to do something that upsets me, and it'll start all over again.
you watch.

hey, you're fucking ace at this game, and i give up.

fuck this .

There's no need to pretend, that everything's gone.
That everything is a mess.
And I'm stuck in the middle of it.

So things have probably changed, and I should probably leave.

i wonder if you miss me.

If I never expect, I'll never be disappointed.

I'm going to try this out.

I don't really know what to say.
Actually, I think I'm more afraid of who actually reads this,
How they're going to interpret it, and how they're going to judge me.
I tell myself that this should be my place in cyberspace.
Where I can do whatever I want, and noone can stop me.
I should be able to say whatever without a worry.
But I can't really be who I want to be and say what I want to say.
Because the truth is, there's a world out there, a world that can read.
A world that doesn't empathise and a world that judges based on assumptions.
Just one big scary world, that I have to live in.
And that's all I have to say.

To all those juniors at my school, who think they're top shit, you're not, so stop pretending like you are. Wtf ever happened to respecting your elders?!

Yeah just thought you'd like to know, when you think its convenient, I'll be long gone.

Cannot wait for my Hotel 626 date with Alanna :)

Tell me when to press ►

Why is it that you get to control what happens to me?
That I'm only apart of your life when you say so.
That I only get to be loved when you want to.
That I'm only your favourite when there's noone else.
That I have to go to you, when you want me to.
No matter how many times I tell myself to follow my dreams,
I end up listening to you, doing whatever you want me to.
And it's stupid because I keep coming back.

You know what? Let's just forget about what I feel, because really that doesn't matter.
And I was kidding myself when I thought this was real.

Put me down for whatever, coz where ever this is going, it's not where I wanna go.

TELL ME HOW YOU FEEL, I'M NOT A MIND READER.

Tell me if I'm waiting for something that's never going to be happen.

200th Post 8D

I don't really know where to go from here.
Feels like I have to slow things down,
But everything is moving without me.
I can't catch up, life won't wait for me.
I guess the only thing that can wait for me, is you.

Threatened.

this is freaking tearing me apart.

Guess I'm not.

ASKDJASKLDJASLD FUCK I GIVE UP.

Fuck, I hate this.

Maybe it's just easier to forget all the memories and forget we ever met.

Sometimes I wonder if I should even express myself.

I take it all back, what was I thinking?
Thought I'd be able to surpass all the complications.
Tried to make things simple,
But I don't get to make the rules
In a world of others, I just live by their rules.
This is too hard, and it hurts to much to play.
I was kidding myself when I thought that I
could end with 'happily ever after'.
The more I think about it, I don't think I
should play other people's games.
So just give me the free pass and I'll be gone.
I promise it'll be easier in my absence
Because I don't think I belong,
I don't think I belong in your game.

I'm not going to fall for it this time because that would just complicate things.

i think i'm a bother and a waste of space.

let me know if you can make me feel better.

INSECURE.

Sometimes I'm really scared, scared that you won't like what you find.

I wonder if you miss me as much as I miss you.

Maybe I'm too different. :/

may·be

/ˈmeɪbi/ Show Spelled[mey-bee]

–adverb

1.

perhaps; possibly: Maybe I'll go too.

–noun

2.

a possibility or uncertainty.

Maybe you don't really know me. Maybe I'm not who you think I am. Maybe I'm not who you want me to be. Maybe we're just all stuck in this fantasy and it's just time before we realise we have to wake up. Maybe everything we touch will turn to dust. Maybe this is too hard. Maybe this is what I want. Maybe you'll hate what you end up finding. Maybe if I'm lucky, just maybe you'll take me for who I am.

I can't.. get you out of my head. :/

We only see the real side of people through their blogs. Through the way they write and express themselves. This is the only way, they can be who they really are, not who they are expected to be. This is probably the only place you can see who I really am, even if it is subjective, even if all I write are a couple of sentences that probably don't mean anything to you. Sometimes I wish I could see life from your perspective, just as easily you can see life from mine.

Two things could happen between us as time moves forward. 1) you'll fall in love with me. 2) you'll fall out of love with me. You tell me.

I don't want to be just another girl.

Why start now?

If you're going to flirt, please not in my face.

We're so alike.

◄◄x2 & ►

If only I had the power to rewind time.

I'll tell you how I feel, through my blog. :)

baby without you I'm nothing.

you fill up my thoughts.

As much as I hate to say this, I think you should forget about me.

I don't think I can win.

It's alright, just wait and see your strings of light are still bright to me.
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.

- Taylor Swift; Innocent .

a girl can always wish.

Sometimes I wish memories would be more reliable. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze time just for a little while, to stay in the moment. Sometimes I wish the weather would be sunny all the time. Sometimes I wish that life didn't have to be so complicated. Sometimes I wish you could be honest with me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't the one you fell back on. Sometimes I wish hugs would last forever. Sometimes I wish that I'd be able to smile even when I'm sad. Sometimes I wish that you would call. Sometimes I wish that you would talk to me. Sometimes I wish you loved me. Sometimes I wish someone would grant me my wish.

TODAY.011110

WEIRD.FUN.AMAZING.RAINY.WET.HUGS.SHARING.NUGGETS.BADGES.CARS.BARBERS.BINS.CONFUSING.UNDERSTANDING.RUNNING.MESS.BREATHLESS.

You make me smile without even trying. :)

I can do this.

I don't think I can do this.

I would've gone with you in a heartbeat.

The End.

DEARBLOG;
Urgh, things are hard, don't particularly like them right now, trying to concentrate in class is very difficult and I'm not really sure what to do, I've got like a physics assessment in 2 weeks, which is really freaking me out, I should totally start studying for it like now, because otherwise I will fail, and that's not cool, especially when its contributing to my HSC, very scary. :( So i don't really know what to do with like things. == gosh this must be confusing. :S i'm not going to confuse you anymore.
Signing out.

Shout out to Michelle, coz she's awesome. :)

Shout out to Carl, :D Msg me when you read this LOL

Yeah whatever.

HSC 2011

Subjects:
Extension 1 Mathematics :/
2U Mathematics :/
Advanced English :)
Chemistry T_T
Physics :)
Studies of Religion 1U :)

ATAR Aim ; 95+ (:
Realistic ATAR guess ; 70 T_T"
Actual ATAR ; /: might tell, depending on what i get LOL :L

Ryan Atwood & Marissa Cooper

I think you've guessed it, after watching two seasons of The OC and still going I'm on Season 3 right now, and what I've fallen in love with is Marissa & Ryan's relationship. :) They love each other so much and sacrifice so much for each other, it's so cute (: Ahah, so I guess I'm sounding pretty corny now, so some things I love about Marissa & Ryan is when Trey and Ryan are fighting and because Trey is strangling Ryan, Marissa ends up shooting Trey, okay that doesn't sound very romantic at all LOL. And after Ryan was taken into jail because Trey falsely accused Ryan of shooting him, Marissa then goes to confront Trey and changes his mind *ngaaaw* :) She's sucha babe 8D Ahaha, and also when Ryan and Marissa are on the Ferris Wheel after Marissa is expelled [she's not allowed to attend the school carnival] and some teacher tells Marissa off and tells her to leave, and eventually grasps tightly onto her wrist, Ryan then punches the guy 8D LOLOLOL, okay well I don't want my boyfriend to like whack people for touching me but knowing that he's there to defend me would be nice :) it's one of those traits that i look for. :)

UNSW

Yep, you guessed it, so yesterday I went with my friends Sam & Emily to UNSW, because a) I had nothing else to do & b) i've always had a crush on UNSW, so I decided to go visit it. In the morning, Sam came to pick me up at about 7:40 8D LOLOL, and then Emily was already in the car so we went to pick up another friend, who I must mention is very awesome aswell, DEBBIE :) Aheheh, so we drove to UNSW, and when we got there, Emily & Debbie decided to go get coffee probably because they've been staying up very late :( And so we walked to the Business building which looks very modern and pretty, :) and we went into theatre 15, i think. And Debbie and Sam went to their tutorial and Emily stayed with me for abit and then left for her tutorial. So I was just waiting outside doing some chemistry work, which was pretty alright? LOLOL, and BOOM an hour flew by like that! :D

They all finished their tutorials and we went to this other place to wait until it was 11 so Emily could go to her lecture :) And I started throwing Sam's green P's at him and I kept saying "Eat P's" ahaha, and it was weird, this guy kept staring at me. :S So when it was time, we walked Emily to class and then sat in the Quad for a bit.

Then we had to go to Upper Campus because Sam wanted to buy an envelope LOL so Sam and I trekked it all the way to the Upper Campus and there are WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too many stairs! And so we went to the POST OFFICE :) YES THEY HAVE A POST OFFICE, they also have a Dental Clinic, Chemist and Medical Clinic oh and of course the Optometry Clinic :) So Sam and I arrived at the Post Office and bought and envelope and Sam also bought me a mini Mars bar for 70 cents, I was so amazed he bought it because it was so expensive. LOL, Anyhoo I then told Sam that I wanted to visit the Library, UNSW Store and also the Optometry building. :) So we went to the library which is very funky! :D yes I was very fascinated, and they have heaps of study rooms, it makes me wanna go to their library just to study :L AND THEIR LIBRARY HAS TEN LEVELS 8D aheheh, yeah it was very exciting! :D We then went to the UNSW merchandise store where they have UNSW jerseys, and jackets, hoodies, bags :D and awesome graduation teddy bears! :D that was pretty awesome. :) I 'd really like a UNSW jacket :D so hopefully I make it into the course I want and then I can make that dream come true. :) We then entered a restaurant called Southern Wok because Sam wanted milk tea, and their Taro Milk tea was very nice. :) teehee, OH ALSO THEY HAVE A HAIR SALON ON CAMPUS! :D So Sam and I went to see the Optometry building which is kind of isolated all by itself, but it looks very pretty and modern, and they have a North Wing and South Wing. :D

After waiting for Emily to come out of her lecture, I also saw Shirley & Joss YAAAY :D haven't seen them in ages teehee, so then we decided to go to UNIBAR :D That was pretty cool, because I'm underaged teehee, and at the back of UNI bar they have this arcade kinda section with pool tables and arcade games like Street Fighter :D We waiting for Sam to finish to finish playing pool, then I farewelled everyone and left with Sam. :)

Sam decided to take me to birkenhead point because I've never been and I was soooo hungry D: and by the time we got there, there wasn't much choice, there was sushi, noodles, subway and gozleme. :( So i got noodles and after I finished we decided to go to DFO then I found out that he once took an hour to go from birkenhead point to DFO T_T how depressing :( So the ride was quite long because there was a traffic jam which totally sucked! :L So when we go there, we were kinda just eye shopping and then we went to Cotton On and i decided to wear these guy shirts LOL because I liked them, and apparently they made me look "hot" teehee LOL and I also bought 2 cardigans for $2 which were originally $25 WOO :D SO yeah after that sam just drove me home, but I had a great time. :) And I love my UNI kids. ! 8D

You're crushing me, and you don't even care, you don't even know it.

So, I don't really know what to say because it feels
like I've just lost my best friend. I know we weren't
exactly that close, but it sure felt like that to me,
and now you don't even call and we don't even
talk anymore. I don't even know what happened,
and you surely don't want to let me in on the
secret. So is this it then? Is this the end of our
friendship? Can we even call it that? And why
do you get to control what goes on between us?
This is driving me crazy and I really don't know
where to go from here, because it really feels
like I've just lost my best friend.

Sometimes I wish you weren't so nice.

You're everywhere I go.

Why am I surprised? I guess you treat everyone that way.

Today was wonderful, probably the most fun I've had all this year (:

So this is how it all went down, first I met up with my cousin on the train & i bumped into Windar and her friend so we just talked about UNI. Got off at Town Hall and then met up with Michelle but I thought she was going to be late, but turns out she got there at 9:30 and sat on the train and went around the city circle twice LOLOL OH then we also went to Prize Paradise to see what had happened to it, and there were these korean chicks just dancing there it was sooooo awkward coz there was noone there and no shops either (x So anyways then I met up with Terence and he's pretty cool (: And then finally after like 50 minutes of suspenseful waiting, Carl came. (x LOLOL and I was so dog to him, i told him i hated him then i hung up. (x Bahaha, then when we got to easyway I was so lost coz Carl was meant to be there so i called him up and he's like "I SEE YOU" FREAAAAAAAAAKY.

Anyways, Terence had to go watch his movie, so we went to Max Brenner and had TUTTI FRUTTI WAFFLES :) and it was reallly nice and rich (x ahaha, but it was good :d and we played black and white to see who had to eat the left overs so that was pretty fun :) Um I fail at Chinese, well not really coz we were conspiring against Carl to make him eat leftovers and I told my cousin & michelle to do black, and then in the end i did white so that was epic fail LOL and i ended up having to eat the waffles (:

So after getting fattened up we walked to karaoke, and it was sucha pretty atmosphere, really creative graffiti :) And so we sung for 2 hours even though we wanted to originally buy 3 hours. BUT I THINK THEY GAVE US AN EXTRA HOUR (: Woo :L Aheheh, but we were pretty dead by the end of that, so we went to recharge by eating food @ Hungry Jacks :L and woaaah Terence is so beast, he can eat so much and he's sooo skinny T_T" that kinda sounds like me :) ALSO we played the pen game, but we used straws instead, which is basically when you put a straw on the top of your lips and see how long you can hold it for, so like a straw moustache :D I owned at that game :)

Byt then Terence had to leave and magically we bumped into more people and decided to go to "The Secret Room" which was really awesome :D So basically they have all these rooms with different themes so they have like "love" themed and "japanese" themed and they look really amazing. :) so I'm not really sure what our room theme was, i think it was "White" so anyways we just played Mario Kart and Just Dance on Wii (x ZOMG SOOOO FUNNY :L Oh i suck at Mario Kart on Wii like so hard (x but maybe thats coz they were hard maps :L ahah JUST DANCE LOLOLOLOL that was so fail, it was like doing aerobics (x BAHAHA and the actions were sooo humiliating, so I took heaps of photos of our failing :D

Yesterday was just amazing, I had so much fun with you. Rolling around in the grass and running around the park. You lifting me up, and me trying to lift you. Hugging so tight, eyes meeting and lips locking. Make funny rabbit sounds, that was just adorable. Hey, when we don't feel like talking to each other, when we feel like the world's crashing down, let's never forget these moments.

Hey, be honest, did I stuff things up?

I miss you.

I think I stuffed things up.

Hey, I think I like you. :)

What always happens, life.

Marry me .

And where do we go from here?
Because things are slipping.

dearblog;
did i fcuk things up? :S

dearblog;
I feel weird on the inside. :S

dearblog;

I feel like I'm neglecting my blogspot, and I'm moving onto tumblr. :(
But blogspot I do love you, you were my first blog, even though it wasn't
this one, when I read back to my earlier entries I laugh at how silly
and immature I was. But sometimes I go back and read the lyrics I use
to write and I ask myself is that even me? I guess sometimes you lose
yourself in your emotions, and really you have no control, and you express
whatever you're feeling because that's the only way you can truly be yourself.
But I promise to write more, even if it might not be the most entertaining
entries, but maybe I should blog about my life here, and I shall leave tumblr
to reblog-ing. Well today is my cousin's birthday. :) He's turning 16, that little kid.
So I'm just going to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUSTIN. :)
And I'm going to spend the rest of the day writing up notes for chemistry and physics,
and showering and taking photos with the camera jamie bought me because he's the
most awesome person in the world, and he lost 4kgs saving for me :S he didn't have to
do that, really. Now I'm just excited to fatten him back up 8D

http://aloeflower.tumblr.com

Dear blog,

I think I died today, after finding out my mathematics extension 1 mark, I'm a dead woman walking.

RAWRRAWRRANT.

I've had enough of you, I thought I could live with you there but obviously I can't. I thought things would be okay, but they're not going to be. I thought you'd leave me alone but you're not going to. I hate you, I fucking hate you and I hope you die in a hole. You think you're so good but really you're not any better than me or anyone else for that matter. So why don't you stop trying to claim what's not yours and fucking go back to the fucking hole you came out of because no ones likes you.

The only way I can help you, is if you let me in.

JAMIENGUYEN ♥ .

is my boyfriend. And I feel as if I’m only truly myself when he’s around. Even if the real me isn’t someone who’s happy all the time. Even if I cry over spilt milk, even if I scream my lungs out because I get angry. Today you took me to a place where I can’t begin to describe, you told me I was beautiful and you didn’t want to be with anyone besides me. You told me that I didn’t have to hide from you and you loved me. You’d listen to me go on about absolutely anything and you told me I could ask you anything. Today I felt silly and hid under the blankets, but you didn’t let me hide for long and step by step, you eventually got me to come out. You held my hand and told me it was okay, that it was normal.You held my up and spun me around like a little kid. You carried me like a princess and I know it was hard and it wasn’t for long but the fact that you tried made me smile. Lying next to you with out arms crossed over and our fingers entwined I didn’t want it to end. That’s when I realised that what we have is beautiful and no one can take that away from us.

ILOVEYOUJAMIENGUYEN.

Whatever we have, I don't know what it is anymore.

I really don't like you, no really, who do you think you are?

Dear blog;

I don't know what to do, things are crashing down and it seems like everything is just getting worse and I'm stuck in the middle of it. If I could do anything that I wanted to do, I'd run around like a sped and pretend that nothing in the world matters, I wanna drink until I'm drunk off my face. I'm not going to cry, I'm going to do what makes me smile, going to shine going to be the best I can be without you. I wanna sleep and never wake up, I wanna dream and make sure they last a life time. I wanna run in the rain and pretend that I'm not going to get sick. I wanna get soaked by the rain fall and still be able to get up. I wanna fall backwards and fall into someone's arms without having to hesitate. I wanna drown in the water and not be able to feel it taking over me. I wanna feel my blood rush and take risks. I wanna scream and be heard by the rest of the world. I wanna fly and let the wind take me. I wanna forget everything bad thats happened and push on. I wanna be stuck on a rollercoaster just to feel all the blood rush to my head. I wanna see you read this and feel what I feel.

If promises are made to be broken,
why do we make them?
Because there's that one part of us
that longs and wishes for the other
person to keep their end of the bargain.

If LOST was a destination, I'd be there.

Tax`d off Jaye.

Appearance:
I am 5'4 or shorter.
I think I'm ugly sometimes.
I have many scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have a tattoo.
I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I've had braces.
I wear glasses.
I'd get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, scar-free.
I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercings in places besides my ears.
I have freckles.

Family/Home Life :
I've sworn at my parents.
I've been kicked out of the house.
My biological parents are together.
I have a sibling less than one year old.
I want to have kids someday.
I have children.
I've lost a child.

Embarrassment:
I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I've snorted while laughing.
I've laughed so hard I've cried.
I've glued my hand to something.
I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
I've had my pants rip in public.

Health:
I was born with a disease/impairment.
I've had stitches.
I've broken a bone.
I've had my tonsils removed.
I've sat in a doctor's office with a friend.
I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
I've had a serious surgery.
I've had chicken pox.

Traveling:
I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
I've been on a plane.
I've been to Canada.
I've been to Niagara Falls.
I've been to Japan.
I've been to America.
I've been to Europe.
I've been to Africa.
I've been to France.

Experiences:
I've been lost in my city.
I've seen a shooting star.
I've wished on a shooting star.
I've seen a meteor shower.
I've gone out in public in my pyjamas.
I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
I've been to a casino.
I've been skydiving.
I've gone skinny dipping.
I've played spin the bottle.
I've crashed a car.
I've been skiing.
I've been in a play.
I've met someone in person from the internet.
I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
I've seen the Northern Lights.
I've sat on a roof top at night.
I've played chicken.
I've played a prank on someone.
I've ridden in a taxi.
I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
I've eaten sushi.
I've been snowboarding.

Relationships:
I'm single.
I'm in a relationship.
I'm available.
I'm engaged.
I'm married.
I've gone on a blind date.
I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
I miss someone right now.
I have a fear of abandonment.
I've been divorced.
I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
I've told someone I liked them when I didn't.
I've told someone I didn't like them when I did.
I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality:
I've had a crush on someone of the same gender.
I've kissed a member of the same gender.
I've had sex with more than one person at the same time.
I am a cuddler.
I've been kissed in the rain.
I've had sex outdoors.
I've hugged a stranger.
I have kissed a stranger.
I have had sex with a stranger.

Honesty/Crime:
I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from someone.
I've cheated while playing a game.
I've cheated on a test.
I've run a red light.
I've been suspended from school.
I've witnessed a crime.
I've been in a fist fight.
I've shoplifted.

Drugs/Alcohol:
I've consumed alcohol.
I've smoked a cigarette.
I've smoked pot.
I regularly drink.
I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.

There can only be one correct answer.

de·sire

–verb (used with object)

1.

to wish or long for; crave; want.

–noun
3.a longing or craving, as for something that brings satisfaction or enjoyment

MYWISHLIST♥

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RENOVATION KIDDIES. :)

You just make things easier.

Can't wait until you're here.

And things get better

MAYBE SOME THINGS ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.

don'tleaveme.

NIEVIG.

IMISSYOU.

SHESMYNEWREPLACEMENT.

Things are just so different now.

She hates him, he hates her.
They're in love.

You save me from my nightmares.

You're living in the past and I'm living in the future.

MY NEW DRUG ; CHAT ROULETTE.

DEARBLOG;
I had so much fun yesterday probably more fun than I've had all month.
Why? :) Becuase i met so many unique people around the world all because
of this program called 'Chatroulette' I heard about it on The 7PM Project and
its acutally really exciting and different. :D Though I must warn you there
are lots of perverted people out there and probably out of the 6 people I talked
to 1/3 were perverted and there were about 3 people I didn't talk to because of
what their webcams were showing. :L but if you try and forget all those silly people
out there, you'd actually have lots of fun. I enjoyed talking to 3 people one man was from
Holland and don't worry I didn't give out any personal details, he was really funny. :)
Another 22 year old from America and he was really built 8D ahahaha; :L he was alright
too until he started to make me fele uncomfortable but before that stage I had
clicked the "NEXT" button and I was on my way to another "stranger". And a group
of teenagers from America :L one of them had a really nice fringe. :L Ahahah. :) Anyways
overall everyone was pretty sweet and I'm really hooked on it; but it sucks because I don't
have webcam and I went to try and buy one this morning but apparently the sale
doesn't come into play until March. :L Which kinda sucks; coz I really wanted to chatroulette
today. D:

I love you too.

ESS AYE DEE

Dedication - [A really old dedication]

Was this another fairytale?
How do I know you won't turn around and leave me here.
The truth is that, I don't.
I hope and wish you'll stay.
The option of dropping you and everything has come.
Rejected too many times.
Maybe it's my turn to take a ticket to this rollercoaster.
After many circles around, I arrive back at square one.
This is when I realise, I want you to be there with me.
When I am my dulest, you add the colour.
It's you who I wake up everyday to see.
Maybe you don't quite notice.
I'm trying to say, I'm falling in love.
Falling in love over and over again.

DEARBLOG;
Yesterday I was looking through the notes on my phone where I just express myself; found some stuff that I wrote 2 years ago and it doesn't even sound like me. :L Ahaha; :) But I shall post some, because some of the stuff I wrote sounded more advanced than what I'd write right now. :)

DEARBLOG;

I'm giving up msn for 40 days, though I think it's going to be extra hard. :)
But I have fb chat, and I have dom to keep me company even though whenever
I talk to him on fb chat it laggs up like :@ ROFL; :)

♪ - Down [Candle Light Remix] - Jay Sean

♪ `Coz if you're not really here, I don't wanna be either. I wanna be next to you.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you too.
And no matter what happens, you know I'll be right here with you .
All you have to do is turn around and I'll be standing there.

*PS DOM - I'M GETTING BETTER! 8D 3 SENTENCES FTW.

I KNOW ITS LATE ; BUT HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABY.

:L ' YOU'RE STILL HOT BABES! THAT'S RIGHT GO WALK IT OFF! ' :)

' I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND, BECAUSE HE'S LIKE SO HOT. '

(; Gotta love Taylor Swift.

DEARBLOG;
I just want to say Thank You to Jamie Nguyen today for saving me.
Thank you for being there for me when tears began to swell up in my eyes.
Thank you for saving me when I felt like I was drowning on the inside.
Thank you for continuously asking if I would be okay, even though it was all over.
Thank you for holding me close when everyone laughed because they didn't understand.
Thank you for holding my hand because I felt like I needed strength.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, Thank you for saving me today and being there when I needed you.

DEARBLOG;
& because I can be a fairy if I want to!
To all those people who were staring at me ; HAVEN'T YOU EVER SEEN A TALKING FAIRY?!




















& to dom; i hope you like that person that I brought to life for you. :)

And even if I'm dying on the inside, I'm going to hide it from you.

I wish you knew how much I miss you right now.
But I know you won't because you're never going to see this.

Why am I even here ?

I feel like I'm losing you , to her.

If love was a subject, I'd fail.

I just want to fall in love with you all over again.

Damn, she's so pretty.
I discovered her amongst my 16GB of Japanese Pop
that I haven't even finished listening to. :)
Her name is MiChi & she's half japanese & half british. :)

No matter how hard I try, things aren't going to go back to the way they were.

How can I tell you what's wrong, when the problem is you?

"can't keep my eyes off you" - quote jamie.

I live for these moments.

It's not because you are friends, it's because you're rubbing it in my face and it hurts.

I know I can't save you, but I'm sure she can.

If i took all the time in the world to write you a song, would you even read it?

DEARBLOG;

I'll let you in on a secret ;
When I'm bored I take photos - one of my hobbies.
Sneakpeak

DEARBLOG;

♪ - No Air ; Glee Cast

Let me tell you what happened yesterday.

# ; Went to the library and borrowed a few books.
# ; Decided to buy a "Dolly" Diary & personalised it.
# ; Found an obsession with White laptops esp. Sony Vaios.
# ; Went driving on her 3rd hour and got to drive with main traffic.
# ; Said bye to daddy because he's going to Melbourne today.

I can't be who I want to be, because that's not who they want me to be.