What happened to us?

And I find it weird how after people are done dating,
We call them an "ex", surely they deserve much more
than this.

I'm lying on the other side of the door, wondering where you are.

♪ - Shut Up ; Black Eyed Peas.

You're back home with me, where you belong.

♫ Take a Bow - Glee Cast.

I'm grumpy. D:<
I don't like it when I'm grumpy. D:<
It's not cool. D:<
And noone likes it when it's not cool. D:<
Horay, I'm going to go chemistry + physics tutor.. D:<
Like a loner, because all my friends are going on Friday. D:<
Yes, it's very sad, I'm going to be loner on Saturday. D:<
I'm going to go cry a river now. D:<

On a brighter ♪ ; you're coming back to me tomorrow. (:
Can't wait. :) Ilyloser. :]

♫ Nauseous ; Claude Kelly

& Just tell me I'm so not worth it.

♫ Si Je m'en Fuis ; Kyle Evans

Dear Readers;

Let's see... I haven't really wrote anything proper for a while.. Maybe it's time to start. All I've been writing these holidays are short poems if they can even be called that. It's nearly the end of the holidays and so much for studying :S . Let's just say, I always have some way to make things alright, Idk; let's just call it magic. I was meant tobe reading "The Joy Luck Club" thing is I only have 4 days to finish it; and that's not going to happen. Change of plan; going to re-read "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time" I LOVE THIS BOOK; it's the only book I've re-read and can re-read. (: I was meant to go to the beach today, buh I didn't end up going, I have like the biggest tummy ache right now. I lost my external hd; and everything on it. However I hope that when I go over to Vivian's on sunday; I'll be able to tax everything back. So right now, I'm living on phone music and "my received files" D: It's horrible. ): My back kills probably because I slept like a prawn, buh I guess that's what I always do. I probably need to chuck your jumper in the wash so it's all nice and clean for when you come back. I hope you can make it on sunday; I wanna see you. No wait; let me re-phrase that; I REALLY NEED to see you, otherwise I think I'm going to go insane. I don't plan to sleep on friday; and wait till you come back; pity I don't know what time you'll be back besides the fact that it's in the morning. This is probably the longest entry I've written.. so far. :L Well; I guess that sums it up for you dudes & dudettes.

Just so you know; I miss you so much. ): And it's only another 2 days till you come back to me; but this seems like forever baby probably because it seems like time stops without you around.

& until next time. (; I expect you to be waking up and smelling the sunshine. (:

♪ Things I'll Never Say ; Avril Lavigne

I just want to say;

Happy 16th Birthday to Lo Gong & Simon. (:

& In 4 days you'll come back to me. (:

♫ - Eternal Flame

& because I have no say in what's happening.
Just have to sit around and put up whatever this is.
& Truly it sucks, because I have to trail `round with you.
Believe me, if I had a choice, I'd be gone already.
& Fuck you, fuck your way.
You're so inconsiderate and selfish.

♫ Mobile - Avril Lavigne

Why don’t you pretend we were just a dream
It’s cool baby it doesn't matter anyway.

- Just missed the train ; Kelly Clarkson

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
yeah I try to believe you,
But I don't.

- Tomorrow ; Avril Lavigne

♪ - Dead on Arrival ; Fall Out Boy.

Bleh; Happy 400 Days.

Coz you don't feel the need to show affection.
There's no need for me anymore. (:
Happy living without me.

♫ - Dead on Arrival ; Fall Out Boy

It hasn't even been that long,
But I'm missing you already...
In fact there hasn't been a single moment where I stopped.
I can't stop thinking about you.
I can't stop reminiscing about our memories.
I can't stop the nostalgia that I have for you.
But I've learnt that even though you're so far away;
Even though we're not in the same state.
Even though we're not in the same country.
Even though we're not on the same continent.
We're under the same sky.
We see the same moon.
We see the same sun.
We see the same stars that light up the night sky.
I miss that smile that crosses your face.
I miss the way you'd hug and not let go.
I miss the way you didn't want to leave.
I wish time would fast forward to the day you'd come back.

I just wanna say;

HAPPY SWEET S16TEENTH BIRTHDAY CLINTON. (:

& What I've learnt is we shouldn't take what we have for granted because before you know it, what you had today may be gone by tomorrow.

♪ Will you fall for me - Delta Goodrem

(: What I do when I'm bored.

♫ - Take a Bow - Rihanna

What does it mean when I can't stop
refreshing your page.
Every single minute passes, and I can't
stop clicking.
Just waiting for something new to happen.
Trying to see whether you're trying to communicate.
But another minute passes and there's nothing.
What I want to say, is that...
I miss you so much, I wish I could tell you.
You're so far away, I'm not use to this.
I'm use to having you so close.
So close that I could feel your breath.
But now you're not and I haven't learnt
To be without you, I like having you by my side.
I miss you bubs. ):

♪ - Dead on Arrival - Fall Out Boy.

FACT ; I'm missing you & I wish you were hereee.
Buh I'm also hoping you're having fun without me.
FACT ; My external hard drive is slowly dying. ):
FACT ; I'm reall hungry kinda want nachos. :L
FACT ; I'm getting angry at the fact that I may be
losing all my files.
FACT ; I'm still renovating; once again.

Bleh; I wish it would just work.
I can't begin to describe how much valuable
stuff I have on my HD. T_T"

Renovations. (:
Come back another time. :)

& So I'd reach beyond the stars
and dismantle the moon just to make
you mine. (;

♪ - Breathe ; G-Dragon.

If I knew, I would cherish the moment we had together.
& It's like craving oxygen.

& I try to be strong for you..
But sometimes its just too hard.

♪ ; Poppin' - Utada Hikaru

:D To start off HAPPY 33 MONTHS to V.L & HAPPY 14 MONTHS to J.N ; you know ily.

Alright; so yday I went to subject selection night and I pretty much knew what I wanted to do; buh now I have a little dilemma. So in year 11; i needa a minumum on 12 units & you have to do english & this is what I have so far :
2 Adv. English
2 Mathematics
1 Extention Mathematics
2 Chemistry
2 Physics
2 Japanese Beginners

So; thats a total of 11 units so I need one more subject and originally I was going to do either 1 or 2 unit photography and then drop it in year 12 because it doesn't count towards my ATAR; buh then I'd have 11 units and 5 subjects which means I have to do REALLY well in all of them, but I don't know if that will happen. So I thought maybe I should do a subject that counts towards my ATAR. T_T" Buh I hope they let I wanna do 1 unit photography & 1 unit religion as well. :)

Mood; GRUMPY.

URGH! Faaark! So pissed off and sometimes I think it's okae to stop believing. Just for a while. Don't you hate it when people raise your hopes, and then crush them? It hurts doesn't it? It hurts even more when that's what they have a reputation for because there's just that one part of you that wants to believe that things might be different for a change. That one part of you, that hopes, that hopes and hopes and hopes but let's just cut to the chase. It's not going to happen is it? Its all fake.

RENOVATIONS. (:
PS - I LOVE SEUNGRI FROM BIGBANG! :D

& this is the part when I'm beginning to worry `cause you're saying

"This is the part where we say we're in love and the part where we have our first kiss, but this ain't a movie I know you can't come with me you got your life, he better be treating you right."

Coz the only piece of comfort I have is that; I'm pretending you don't mean it.
& Maybe sometimes other moments are too sweet to be true.

♪ Ending Song - Kiss o' Kill - Ayumi Hamasaki.

BA! :D
Good news. :)
i guess after all that dreaming,
it actually came true.
I got the nokia n97 today. :D
SO SEXY! :)
It's sad that I have to wait
another 6 hours before I can
use it; cos its charging! xD

Renovations.
Come back another time. (: