at the end of the day, you have to evaluate your options

if that means breaking things a part, and trying to fit things back together

that obviously don't belong,

you have to make a choice, better make sure it's the right one.

Wilkinson - Afterglow

Things started to make sense.

"Prizing social validation and a sense of belonging so highly, romantic relationships hold a special level of importance for ESFJs. No other kind of relationship provides people with the ESFJ personality type with the same level of support and devotion, and the feelings of security and stability that come with strong romantic relationships are extremely warming.

With such a goal in mind, ESFJ personalities take each stage, from dating to everything thereafter, very seriously.  Knowing that they are loved and appreciated has a huge effect on ESFJs' mood and self-esteem. They can be very needy, compromising their own principles and values in exchange for their partners' approval. ESFJs need to ensure that they build relationships that allow them to satisfy their own needs and dreams, with partners who appreciate their care and generosity fully, and who reciprocate as well."

https://www.16personalities.com/esfj-relationships-dating

Ember Island - Need You (Lyric Video)

You're just not that lucky.

You deseve the best.

A commonality that I have found between all my interactions in relationships,

is that I always get to a point, where I realise that I can do better.

I get to this realisation that there is a better person out there,

who will fall so completely and utterly in love with me,

so much so that I shouldn't have to deal with anyone else's bullshit.

I know sometimes it's hard to see when your field of vision is blocked by something so toxic disguised as an angel standing right in front of you.

I guess the sad thing is that sometimes people don't always realise the value of what they have, standing there right in front of them, until it's gone. 

Sometimes you just have to take a deep breath, re-focus your perspective and know that

you are strong enough to let go.

After all, we all deserve the best, sometimes it just takes a little time to realise it.

Date Day

What comes with every relationship is a plethora of lessons waiting to be unlocked.

It would be a waste to indulge in the the pleasures of these relationships without truly understanding their potential worth.

I think the best relationships are open. 

They do not wear chains, that bound one to the other.

They allow one to explore whatever it is their heart desires.

But at the end of the day, they know that home is where the other is.

 

There is a reason why in a population of 7.4 billion, our paths collided.

Although I don't know why, I'd like to think that one day I'll look back and be thankful

for the memories we created - the good and the bad.

It takes great courage and strength to love unconditionally; without expectation, even in the face of disappointment.

"I'm just chewing gum, until the flavour's gone."

Two hopeless hearts just passing by.

"i'd rather have hope with you than certainty with anyone else" 

reign

the beast.

They say "don't play with fire, you're going to get burnt."

They say "one day your curiosity is going to be the death of you."

But you've awoken an insatiable desire deep inside.

And I don't know how to ease it.

And I don't know how to tame the beast within.

And I don't have the courage to feed this hunger...
I want to love you free of boundaries.

So I ask, please give me Strength to believe you.
 

"it's okay to be afraid, the trick is not fighting it."

the 100

You.

I want to tell myself that it's going to be different this time.

I don't know why I told you that you're worth it.

There is something courageous in the art of being vulnerable.

This pulsating sensation sparks a blue flame.

If you could close your eyes, tell me is it me you see?

There is nothing that stands between us besides our own walls we've built in our heads.

This paralysis eats away at us.

Let me bring you to the edge.

 

Booked my flights to London.

This probably isn't going to go anywhere. So let's not waste our time.

3:02 AM THOUGHTS

When your mind races so fast that nothing seems to make sense.

You try to slow it down, try to comprehend it all but everything's a blur.

Second guessing yourself, you put your walls up, you're scared that whatever this is, it's too good and you don't deserve it.

This fear plagues your thoughts, creating doubt and worry, leaving a bitter taste in the back of your throat. 

Starts to drain the life out of you, the thoughts in your mind become monsters. Your own creations, stare blankly right back at you and sometimes you don't even know where these insecurities came from.

You ask yourself, do you cut your losses before things even begin?

Or do you play the game, and give the person a chance even though it's scary as fuck?

Even if it means the chance of getting fucked over?

Don't let the fear of losing, keep you from playing the game. 

I know it's easier than it sounds. I know it's a scary thing to let someone see the deepest and darkest parts of what makes you human. 

But it's okay, because some people are worth the risk, you just need to have a little faith. 

I don't think I've ever been so scared that I might fuck things up. I think sometimes I'm scared that being me is not enough.

I think sometimes I feel like I need to be more. 

And I think sometimes I just need to remember that we're all human. 

And sometimes all you can do is give it everything you have because when you look back at everything that's happened, you want to be able to say to yourself you gave it everything, and sometimes that's the best thing that anyone can ask for. 

Have a little faith.

Don't let the thorns that cut you, 

stop you from getting to know the other flowers in the garden.

 

 

HAPPY 2016

Hello 2016

• Get fit
• Eat healthy
• Secure a graduate position
• Travel - Europe & Japan
• Graduation
• Car
• New part time job

Goodbye 2015

• USA
• Internship x 2
• New hair
• Central Coast
• Barangaroo
• Museums & Art Galleries
• Single
• Melbourne