As much as I hate to say this, I think you should forget about me.

I don't think I can win.

It's alright, just wait and see your strings of light are still bright to me.
Oh, who you are is not where you've been.

- Taylor Swift; Innocent .

a girl can always wish.

Sometimes I wish memories would be more reliable. Sometimes I wish I could just freeze time just for a little while, to stay in the moment. Sometimes I wish the weather would be sunny all the time. Sometimes I wish that life didn't have to be so complicated. Sometimes I wish you could be honest with me. Sometimes I wish I wasn't the one you fell back on. Sometimes I wish hugs would last forever. Sometimes I wish that I'd be able to smile even when I'm sad. Sometimes I wish that you would call. Sometimes I wish that you would talk to me. Sometimes I wish you loved me. Sometimes I wish someone would grant me my wish.

TODAY.011110

WEIRD.FUN.AMAZING.RAINY.WET.HUGS.SHARING.NUGGETS.BADGES.CARS.BARBERS.BINS.CONFUSING.UNDERSTANDING.RUNNING.MESS.BREATHLESS.

You make me smile without even trying. :)

I can do this.

I don't think I can do this.

I would've gone with you in a heartbeat.

The End.

DEARBLOG;
Urgh, things are hard, don't particularly like them right now, trying to concentrate in class is very difficult and I'm not really sure what to do, I've got like a physics assessment in 2 weeks, which is really freaking me out, I should totally start studying for it like now, because otherwise I will fail, and that's not cool, especially when its contributing to my HSC, very scary. :( So i don't really know what to do with like things. == gosh this must be confusing. :S i'm not going to confuse you anymore.
Signing out.

Shout out to Michelle, coz she's awesome. :)

Shout out to Carl, :D Msg me when you read this LOL

Yeah whatever.

HSC 2011

Subjects:
Extension 1 Mathematics :/
2U Mathematics :/
Advanced English :)
Chemistry T_T
Physics :)
Studies of Religion 1U :)

ATAR Aim ; 95+ (:
Realistic ATAR guess ; 70 T_T"
Actual ATAR ; /: might tell, depending on what i get LOL :L

Ryan Atwood & Marissa Cooper

I think you've guessed it, after watching two seasons of The OC and still going I'm on Season 3 right now, and what I've fallen in love with is Marissa & Ryan's relationship. :) They love each other so much and sacrifice so much for each other, it's so cute (: Ahah, so I guess I'm sounding pretty corny now, so some things I love about Marissa & Ryan is when Trey and Ryan are fighting and because Trey is strangling Ryan, Marissa ends up shooting Trey, okay that doesn't sound very romantic at all LOL. And after Ryan was taken into jail because Trey falsely accused Ryan of shooting him, Marissa then goes to confront Trey and changes his mind *ngaaaw* :) She's sucha babe 8D Ahaha, and also when Ryan and Marissa are on the Ferris Wheel after Marissa is expelled [she's not allowed to attend the school carnival] and some teacher tells Marissa off and tells her to leave, and eventually grasps tightly onto her wrist, Ryan then punches the guy 8D LOLOLOL, okay well I don't want my boyfriend to like whack people for touching me but knowing that he's there to defend me would be nice :) it's one of those traits that i look for. :)

UNSW

Yep, you guessed it, so yesterday I went with my friends Sam & Emily to UNSW, because a) I had nothing else to do & b) i've always had a crush on UNSW, so I decided to go visit it. In the morning, Sam came to pick me up at about 7:40 8D LOLOL, and then Emily was already in the car so we went to pick up another friend, who I must mention is very awesome aswell, DEBBIE :) Aheheh, so we drove to UNSW, and when we got there, Emily & Debbie decided to go get coffee probably because they've been staying up very late :( And so we walked to the Business building which looks very modern and pretty, :) and we went into theatre 15, i think. And Debbie and Sam went to their tutorial and Emily stayed with me for abit and then left for her tutorial. So I was just waiting outside doing some chemistry work, which was pretty alright? LOLOL, and BOOM an hour flew by like that! :D

They all finished their tutorials and we went to this other place to wait until it was 11 so Emily could go to her lecture :) And I started throwing Sam's green P's at him and I kept saying "Eat P's" ahaha, and it was weird, this guy kept staring at me. :S So when it was time, we walked Emily to class and then sat in the Quad for a bit.

Then we had to go to Upper Campus because Sam wanted to buy an envelope LOL so Sam and I trekked it all the way to the Upper Campus and there are WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too many stairs! And so we went to the POST OFFICE :) YES THEY HAVE A POST OFFICE, they also have a Dental Clinic, Chemist and Medical Clinic oh and of course the Optometry Clinic :) So Sam and I arrived at the Post Office and bought and envelope and Sam also bought me a mini Mars bar for 70 cents, I was so amazed he bought it because it was so expensive. LOL, Anyhoo I then told Sam that I wanted to visit the Library, UNSW Store and also the Optometry building. :) So we went to the library which is very funky! :D yes I was very fascinated, and they have heaps of study rooms, it makes me wanna go to their library just to study :L AND THEIR LIBRARY HAS TEN LEVELS 8D aheheh, yeah it was very exciting! :D We then went to the UNSW merchandise store where they have UNSW jerseys, and jackets, hoodies, bags :D and awesome graduation teddy bears! :D that was pretty awesome. :) I 'd really like a UNSW jacket :D so hopefully I make it into the course I want and then I can make that dream come true. :) We then entered a restaurant called Southern Wok because Sam wanted milk tea, and their Taro Milk tea was very nice. :) teehee, OH ALSO THEY HAVE A HAIR SALON ON CAMPUS! :D So Sam and I went to see the Optometry building which is kind of isolated all by itself, but it looks very pretty and modern, and they have a North Wing and South Wing. :D

After waiting for Emily to come out of her lecture, I also saw Shirley & Joss YAAAY :D haven't seen them in ages teehee, so then we decided to go to UNIBAR :D That was pretty cool, because I'm underaged teehee, and at the back of UNI bar they have this arcade kinda section with pool tables and arcade games like Street Fighter :D We waiting for Sam to finish to finish playing pool, then I farewelled everyone and left with Sam. :)

Sam decided to take me to birkenhead point because I've never been and I was soooo hungry D: and by the time we got there, there wasn't much choice, there was sushi, noodles, subway and gozleme. :( So i got noodles and after I finished we decided to go to DFO then I found out that he once took an hour to go from birkenhead point to DFO T_T how depressing :( So the ride was quite long because there was a traffic jam which totally sucked! :L So when we go there, we were kinda just eye shopping and then we went to Cotton On and i decided to wear these guy shirts LOL because I liked them, and apparently they made me look "hot" teehee LOL and I also bought 2 cardigans for $2 which were originally $25 WOO :D SO yeah after that sam just drove me home, but I had a great time. :) And I love my UNI kids. ! 8D

You're crushing me, and you don't even care, you don't even know it.

So, I don't really know what to say because it feels
like I've just lost my best friend. I know we weren't
exactly that close, but it sure felt like that to me,
and now you don't even call and we don't even
talk anymore. I don't even know what happened,
and you surely don't want to let me in on the
secret. So is this it then? Is this the end of our
friendship? Can we even call it that? And why
do you get to control what goes on between us?
This is driving me crazy and I really don't know
where to go from here, because it really feels
like I've just lost my best friend.

Sometimes I wish you weren't so nice.

You're everywhere I go.

Why am I surprised? I guess you treat everyone that way.

Today was wonderful, probably the most fun I've had all this year (:

So this is how it all went down, first I met up with my cousin on the train & i bumped into Windar and her friend so we just talked about UNI. Got off at Town Hall and then met up with Michelle but I thought she was going to be late, but turns out she got there at 9:30 and sat on the train and went around the city circle twice LOLOL OH then we also went to Prize Paradise to see what had happened to it, and there were these korean chicks just dancing there it was sooooo awkward coz there was noone there and no shops either (x So anyways then I met up with Terence and he's pretty cool (: And then finally after like 50 minutes of suspenseful waiting, Carl came. (x LOLOL and I was so dog to him, i told him i hated him then i hung up. (x Bahaha, then when we got to easyway I was so lost coz Carl was meant to be there so i called him up and he's like "I SEE YOU" FREAAAAAAAAAKY.

Anyways, Terence had to go watch his movie, so we went to Max Brenner and had TUTTI FRUTTI WAFFLES :) and it was reallly nice and rich (x ahaha, but it was good :d and we played black and white to see who had to eat the left overs so that was pretty fun :) Um I fail at Chinese, well not really coz we were conspiring against Carl to make him eat leftovers and I told my cousin & michelle to do black, and then in the end i did white so that was epic fail LOL and i ended up having to eat the waffles (:

So after getting fattened up we walked to karaoke, and it was sucha pretty atmosphere, really creative graffiti :) And so we sung for 2 hours even though we wanted to originally buy 3 hours. BUT I THINK THEY GAVE US AN EXTRA HOUR (: Woo :L Aheheh, but we were pretty dead by the end of that, so we went to recharge by eating food @ Hungry Jacks :L and woaaah Terence is so beast, he can eat so much and he's sooo skinny T_T" that kinda sounds like me :) ALSO we played the pen game, but we used straws instead, which is basically when you put a straw on the top of your lips and see how long you can hold it for, so like a straw moustache :D I owned at that game :)

Byt then Terence had to leave and magically we bumped into more people and decided to go to "The Secret Room" which was really awesome :D So basically they have all these rooms with different themes so they have like "love" themed and "japanese" themed and they look really amazing. :) so I'm not really sure what our room theme was, i think it was "White" so anyways we just played Mario Kart and Just Dance on Wii (x ZOMG SOOOO FUNNY :L Oh i suck at Mario Kart on Wii like so hard (x but maybe thats coz they were hard maps :L ahah JUST DANCE LOLOLOLOL that was so fail, it was like doing aerobics (x BAHAHA and the actions were sooo humiliating, so I took heaps of photos of our failing :D

Yesterday was just amazing, I had so much fun with you. Rolling around in the grass and running around the park. You lifting me up, and me trying to lift you. Hugging so tight, eyes meeting and lips locking. Make funny rabbit sounds, that was just adorable. Hey, when we don't feel like talking to each other, when we feel like the world's crashing down, let's never forget these moments.