MY NEW DRUG ; CHAT ROULETTE.

DEARBLOG;
I had so much fun yesterday probably more fun than I've had all month.
Why? :) Becuase i met so many unique people around the world all because
of this program called 'Chatroulette' I heard about it on The 7PM Project and
its acutally really exciting and different. :D Though I must warn you there
are lots of perverted people out there and probably out of the 6 people I talked
to 1/3 were perverted and there were about 3 people I didn't talk to because of
what their webcams were showing. :L but if you try and forget all those silly people
out there, you'd actually have lots of fun. I enjoyed talking to 3 people one man was from
Holland and don't worry I didn't give out any personal details, he was really funny. :)
Another 22 year old from America and he was really built 8D ahahaha; :L he was alright
too until he started to make me fele uncomfortable but before that stage I had
clicked the "NEXT" button and I was on my way to another "stranger". And a group
of teenagers from America :L one of them had a really nice fringe. :L Ahahah. :) Anyways
overall everyone was pretty sweet and I'm really hooked on it; but it sucks because I don't
have webcam and I went to try and buy one this morning but apparently the sale
doesn't come into play until March. :L Which kinda sucks; coz I really wanted to chatroulette
today. D:

I love you too.

ESS AYE DEE

Dedication - [A really old dedication]

Was this another fairytale?
How do I know you won't turn around and leave me here.
The truth is that, I don't.
I hope and wish you'll stay.
The option of dropping you and everything has come.
Rejected too many times.
Maybe it's my turn to take a ticket to this rollercoaster.
After many circles around, I arrive back at square one.
This is when I realise, I want you to be there with me.
When I am my dulest, you add the colour.
It's you who I wake up everyday to see.
Maybe you don't quite notice.
I'm trying to say, I'm falling in love.
Falling in love over and over again.

DEARBLOG;
Yesterday I was looking through the notes on my phone where I just express myself; found some stuff that I wrote 2 years ago and it doesn't even sound like me. :L Ahaha; :) But I shall post some, because some of the stuff I wrote sounded more advanced than what I'd write right now. :)

DEARBLOG;

I'm giving up msn for 40 days, though I think it's going to be extra hard. :)
But I have fb chat, and I have dom to keep me company even though whenever
I talk to him on fb chat it laggs up like :@ ROFL; :)

♪ - Down [Candle Light Remix] - Jay Sean

♪ `Coz if you're not really here, I don't wanna be either. I wanna be next to you.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love you too.
And no matter what happens, you know I'll be right here with you .
All you have to do is turn around and I'll be standing there.

*PS DOM - I'M GETTING BETTER! 8D 3 SENTENCES FTW.

I KNOW ITS LATE ; BUT HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY BABY.

:L ' YOU'RE STILL HOT BABES! THAT'S RIGHT GO WALK IT OFF! ' :)

' I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND, BECAUSE HE'S LIKE SO HOT. '

(; Gotta love Taylor Swift.

DEARBLOG;
I just want to say Thank You to Jamie Nguyen today for saving me.
Thank you for being there for me when tears began to swell up in my eyes.
Thank you for saving me when I felt like I was drowning on the inside.
Thank you for continuously asking if I would be okay, even though it was all over.
Thank you for holding me close when everyone laughed because they didn't understand.
Thank you for holding my hand because I felt like I needed strength.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, Thank you for saving me today and being there when I needed you.

DEARBLOG;
& because I can be a fairy if I want to!
To all those people who were staring at me ; HAVEN'T YOU EVER SEEN A TALKING FAIRY?!




















& to dom; i hope you like that person that I brought to life for you. :)

And even if I'm dying on the inside, I'm going to hide it from you.

I wish you knew how much I miss you right now.
But I know you won't because you're never going to see this.

Why am I even here ?